my birthday celebration was a new experience.

it didn't feel very special, yet it felt warm.

it wasn't a bed of roses because there was tons of annoyance.

but it was fun. not that i want to repeat the experience of losing my ez-link/ master card again.

janice. i need to learn to listen and control my temper.

set on the pedestal

sometimes i think i worry too much about being judged. from what you do, how you dress, what songs you listen to, what shows you watch. etc etc.

I mean come on, everyone is a victim of being judged and a culprit of being judgemental. Even I am, like i used to laugh at my dearies in aussie about watching gossip girl as being bimbo. still i don't get watching GG, and still they don't get me watching my crime shows.

so why are people so judgemental when we go for Korean artiste concerts or fan meetings? It just a different genre of pop, a different language. but that does not mean i'm some person that stalks their every move, some insane fan. Its just a form of support (to me at least), to show that we appreciate their music, their effort and their programs.

is it any different from going to a concert with maroon 5 or paramore? no. so just stop being judgemental.

and i love my korean shows and music. and many other things too.

janice. if you don't understand it doesn't mean its not appreciated.

i just remembered that my parents are coming back on sunday.

time to chiong housework.

CN Blue tmr! awesome. Hubby's job interview! awesome. Weekend! Double ding dongs

janice. why can't we have a day off on our birthday?

meetups!

I've been thinking alot lately about tons of different stuff, ranging from friendship to weddings to work.

decisions, decisions, decisions.

about friendship: its kinda sad that we drift apart because of certain factors, well basically now everyone gives the excuse of being busy with work. as i said- excuse. because no matter how busy i am i always set aside time for people i care about. not acquaintances but true friends. rather weird to some, but i've had my fair share of "busy" stuffed in my face. though crude is the best way of fending people off just like at the MRT station full of insurance/credit card agents.

but it was great meeting up with the lovlies from secondary school. no pictures of me, because they took photos after I left. zzz.. next time then.. which is next month. Yippeee.

:) people change, for the better or worse, friendship is there forever.

Met up with Rwds too, its always "happening" to go out with them, getting random weird stares for our illegal congregation of 20-30 people.

but i'm glad to welcome the boy back. its weird having him back, because now we get to act like a normal couple, which i'm not used to. Like meeting him every other day is weird. and having someone walk me home is weird. but its not like i dislike that. just that its "adjustment phase" again.

and nope, wedding bells are not ringing for us just yet. i'm still too young to get married and i wanna be selfish and spend my hard earned cash on myself. for now.

janice. 1 2 3 smile. don't squatter with the low lives here.

i feel fucking insulted back here.

talk about stereotypes. fuck seriously just fuck off. I have nothing against Americans or Caucasians, but seriously? Boss? to put Him one level above me is an insult. To say that he does copyrighting better than me just because he has a better command of English is an insult.

to say that after I freaking edited his grammar and English that he did a good job. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. seriously!? what about MY credit? thanks!

i cannot stand that old retired ex-marine, ex-chartered accountant that USED to earn $60/hr, i'm sick of your bragging about branded things you have and your stupid iPad. seriously i have better things to do than to listen about your "all so awesome life". just fuck off.

i'm so freaking annoyed with the ignorance people have of "marketing" which equals= "sell things"

just go fuck yourself and die.

PS: i'm not a bimbo just because i wear nice clothes and have nice shoes and bags. somebody just teleport me away.

janice.

i'm on MC today, spent the entire day sleeping, feeling awesome once more.

janice. at the boy's place now.

i'm going to be a drama junkie again.

with My Girlfriend is a Nine-Tailed Fox (Korean), Playful Kiss (Korean), Burn Notice (US), CSI - LV (US), NCIS (US), Criminal Minds (US).

Janice. May we all be able to play and not work

wow, ever since my boss became a dad, he also seemingly became my dad. freaking naggy. well its time to job hunt again.

the rule is you have to keep seeking till you find the right job.

i'm a graduate getting a diploma's pay check.

hubby started his part time job today. its a new phase for us again. :)

janice. i hate myself for being a clutz.

Rest In Peace

Is is still as pain when you are dealing with a lost that you saw coming?

I think the pain of losing a loved one still exists deeply. I'm sorry for my dearest babe that lost her mum to her year long battle with cancer. As much as I know it was taking its toll on her mum and her family, i've finally seen her more relaxed.

But as i read her email to us they day before the passing, it made my heart strings pull. As i quote her:" She is trying to say someting but my sis can't figure out what. " she said that her mum was waiting for her to come home from work, but by the time she reached home, her mum was asleep.

Today, its my lovely's birthday and in her email she said:" Last yr during my bdea, my mum was jus able to start her chemo and she is still chubby and mobile, this year during my bdea, she is sick and senile. "

Her mum was always welcoming and friendly, we were just discussing to visit her over the weekend. but we never made it. though the family is coping really well, i'm sure we all have regrets.

janice. we cannot live to remember those who have left, but we live to create memories with those who are still with us. Not to regret when the day they have departed.

Work is getting sort of challenging in a different way, which is good. :) and GOD i seriously need to clear my cupboard, the immense amount of clothes i have in there is gross because some date from secondary school. HAHA.

just some random pikture updates: from in dumb-careless-bimbo-janice moment when i used my left hand to slam my right thumb with my boss' car door. Glam right!

after cleaning up 90% of the blood that i held with my other hand. and waiting at the A&E

After docs cleaned up at punctured a hole to remove the blood, to reduce the pressure under my nail.

and i just cleaned up the nail yesterday once more. by using a needle to remove the clots. still gross. but definitely on the road to recovery.

Today is B my deaf colleague's birthday. and I baked and Iced a cake for him, with hock's help.

Tah-dah, but he is on MC today. FML.

oh well. we shall eat it then

janice. tyooodles...