well.. i've signed in to change Jules' link to her new page.

and i'm glad the first day of Chinese New Year is over, but we are still feeling exhausted from all the cooking and cleaning. i think at last 80 people and 1 dog turned up at my house. which seriously made the maid ME damn tired.

not talking about that. i had a damn nice dinner and walk around (and up) swissotel with my family with my eldest sister. will update later with the photos.

i really don't know if i'm looking forward to go back. because time passes like a freaking time machine back in perth. and sooner than i know. its all over. the 2 years. i was lamenting that my nephews and nieces are really growing up fast, i remember them as babies, now one is already in secondary school. and all of the boys are just sprouting like trees towering over me. oh well.

janice. gummy for me.

i'm sick and tired of cleaning the whole house, because of the construction next door my house is like full of dirt and sand. and my parents are rushing over the whole cny gathering at my house that its driving me crazy because i have to fit their last minute schedule into my very tight weekend schedule.

ah. whatever. is this what Chinese new year supposed to be? driving me to the brink of insanity?

I met one of my ex classmates Jayne from SPF on tne train with grace. it was really nice seeing her again. it gently reminded me how time flies. how we all have changed. how she is a mummy (pretty mummy though- on the side note.. i love pretty mummy) now and having to earn to support her own family with her husband. how she made me realise that we have to learn to be street smart and cash smart.

too much to think about too little time. sometimes people ask me why i stress myself out with small matters while the make merry their time away. maybe i'm just like that to me, life is too imperfect.

janice. i'm too imperfect.

just because I'm curious.. i went to check the met station of murdoch uni.. and the Max temperature today? 42.5.. NICE.. I'm so going to come out of the airport in my bra and panties..

10and I've started transferring the photos from my camera to my computer.. grr.. i have like onlygb of free space left.. oh well.. gotta spend some time sorting out and rearranging the stuff inside my computer. feeling like a karang guni man.. because i feel everything is useful..

before they changed the deco to I've pictures from so long ago.. from the stroll and dinner at orchard with hock after ChristmasChinese new year stuff. to my lunch with my lovelies at my house. the shopping at far east turned Indian food. dinner with Ben and farzana at bedok eating super unhealthy food. to the dinner with my uni people (and Zac's BABY). bowling with hock.

27/12/2008.. Hock and I went to Wheelock Place.
the Christmas deco this year was really a sign of the recession. but we still enjoyed the stroll down orchard road all sticky and sweaty with the tons of Singaporeans.
saw the Sweet Family.. which is damn lame..
had dinner at The Pasta Shop by Sakae.. which sucks like ass.. and was super a waste of money.. please never ever eat there..
and watched a movie.. but i can't remember what it was anymore.. haha..

28/12/2008: My Poly Care Group Besties came over for lunch

and everyone helped with the cooking.. it was damn fun..
Ryan beating the eggs for tiramisu.. and the rest of us in the kitchen making mushroom soup, mashed potato with gravy and etc.
lunch is served!!
and dessert.. after like 2 movies Ryan left and we went upstairs to have wineplay 5-10 and do tons of lame stuff..

30/12/2008: Far east shopping turned Indian Dinner
it really looked quite dodgy.. but we decided to try it.. and it was really quite good.. but rather expensive.. it was like 70 plus for 3 of us..
and we got to try alot of weird seeds and spices.. and laugh at tons of shit
but the food was really not bad especially the chicken tika..

1/1/2009: dinner/bbq with the alumni at Edwin's place.. all pictures are with Sheryl..

2/1/2009: Dinner with Ben and Farzana at Bedok
awesome company and more awesome gossips.. wah...
and hawker food? best!

7/1/2009: Ramen at central to meet zac's baby.
so much more sex talk due to jules' presence.. and our future in the current economy crisis? Open a sex clinic.
jules: sex therapist
jon: auditor/ finance
drea, min and i: marketing department
joel: photography?? media
zac: a mascot as a walking vagina.. HAHAHHAHAHAHAH..

13/1/2008: bowling with hock
check out my super lousy score.. hai..
janice.. I'm so lousy.

i'll upload pictures TMR! all the weeks of pictures from eons since Christmas.

and i'll update tmr too. Yes i leave everything till T-O-M-M-O-R-R-O-W

but isn't it lovely. * i promise

anyway the real reason for me procrastinating, is the fact that the OMFD gazillion photos and videos i have is overtaking all the space in my hard disk. soon i'll be like alex having hard disks and fans connected to his super power computer. now my lonely IBM is taking the toll..

oh.. i shall mention my new friend too. Mr. PPStream. it is according to wikipedia: PPStream is a Chinese peer-to-peer streaming video network software. hence its all in Chinese but there are like tons of movies, English Chinese jap Korean, the most updates series like CSI!! gossip girl, prison break etc, my lovely KOREAN shows, hong kong and Taiwanese dramas, etc etc.. ALL AT MY FINGERTIPS. but the drawback?
ALL THE NAMES ARE IN CHINESE! thank god my Chinese is still relatively good and there are pictures to guide me.

okay. my ibanking security device has DIED on me. NB.. need to go to the bank tmr.

janice. i'm going to Perth in one month. again for the last time?

its been like 5 days since new year. and i guess nothing has changed much. i'm glad that the economy is sort of picking up. it brings hope to me finding a full time job by mid next year.

and i've booked tiger airways return to perth with hock.
SO I'M NOT GOING TO DIE ON A CB QANTAS PLANE!
but i hope that hock won't feel its too squished up for him. as everyone know i'm short. so trips like these that have super small leg space seldom affect me. just hope he doesn't turn into that grumpy old man.

i've been thinking and looking around at parents of my friends. how can someone live with someone else for like more than half a lifetime? i have to admit that Hock and i have sort of thought of our future, and i know that i can see 'us' together for a long long time. but HOW? can my mother stand my father? HOW? maybe when i'm old i will come to understand.

i was lamenting to Hock about how upset i was that my 22nd (and his 23rd) birthday will not be spent with him AGAIN (3 years in a row) since we were helping albert buy flowers for stephanie. Then he just looked at me. with his small beady eyes. hoping that i'll understand. And i did. 1 more year was all he asked for.

"i always know when you are upset"

these few days have been spent laying down. spent time with the alumni on new year's day. being honest, we were only there for each other. i really want to help, but, my heart just doesn't feel right. we don't feel like one family anymore. the stares and smiles seem so mediocre, the laughs are not like they used to be. maybe we've lost the innocence. i'm worried yet relieved.
janice. peace!

okay.. i'm too lazy to upload photos here.
1. there are way too much photos.
2. i have no idea where to start
3. i'm too tired.

anyways.. be bored with the words but i think i've been watching too much stuff. on tv. on the net. in the movies. gosh.. my eyes are just popping out.

i've been watching my korean show (the DVD that hock bought for me) and little nonya on tv
watching lame youtube videos
and watched Twlight.

seriously, i think robert pattinson has become so much better looking since his Harry potter days, and he just had better make up artists. and my sister just told me the ending of the whole series. not going to spoil it.. but the book is a good read for a past time, or you can opt for the audio book like my sister. :)

Christmas was quite okay.. spent at a small bar where older people play pool and sing SUPER DUPER OLD CHEENA PIANG AND CANTO songs. we had tons of fun entertaining ourselves playing 5-10 and drinking martell. and eating prata and it was really a big group..

spent yesterday with ryan, grace, janelle, ray and hock yesterday for a lunch party at my place.. and watched wild child and house bunny on my tv.. AHAHHA.. it was chilling with janelle and ray totally falling asleep on my couch with the rest of us happily laughing at the shows.

janice. there are still some people i want to meet.

and before i get too lazy again.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
instead of saying all the usual. i hope 2009 is just another day for everyone.

i fucking miss PERTH. my OWN life. my OWN room. and my friends.

if not for hock i won't come back for holidays to this humid annoying home. that i'm taken for granted as the maid. even though i came back at 6am. i still had to do the nb laundry at 9am. and today i was on my feet since 9am till now. and the moment my sister heard me coming up the stairs, she rushed to the toilet to shower. SHE HAD GOD DAMN AGES TO BATHE while my perth people were downstairs. but NO! when i came back from genting at 1130. she pulled the same stunt. its getting on my nerves, seriously. and when i told her can she like let me use the toilet next time when i'm really tired. she yelled at me. NEXT TIME I'LL LET YOU USE!! YOU HAPPY NOW?

whatever. first complain that my cooking is not as nice as my mum's. please use some brain. my mum has been cooking for what 50 years? and me? max 10 years. if i can cook as well as my mum then something is wrong with my mum's cooking. or i'm just a talent, which i'm obviously not. so TOP COMPARING MY COOKING WITH MY MUM'S. i hate it when i put so much effort in and all people say is. ITS NOT AS NICE AS MUMMY'S.

when people stay together and share things, we learn the art of sharing, thinking for others. but sometimes i feel that i think for my family more that they think for me. maybe because i've lived with min and alex and the rest of my flatmates, i've learnt to share. and be happy. but that never happens at home. or shall i say seldom.

tonight was a really awesome night till that happened, jules with all her sex jokes and unglam past, drea's clubbing stories from Miami, super funny videos from youtube, potluck dinner. i love these people..

anyway.. i met up with the springfield gang. or some of them at least. it wasn't a really good catch up i must say. because i was totally lost in the inside jokes and gossips. but poor julian. haha, was being the center of ridicule the whole night. and at least i managed to see some familiar faces and chit chat with them for a while.

my malaysian trip was good and bad i must say. good because i got to enjoy the company of hock and only him. and after 4 days of bad moods and nausea, it went quite well, with both of us being grumpy at different times and sharing many happy moments. he really gave in to me by a big margin because i was PMS-ing. and i was really touched by the way he took care of me all the way. and how we were so annoyed with the super not nice- cheat tourist food at genting. and we had fun climbing hills and hills of flowers and etc; playing with the jackpot machines and cuddling up with him every night.

(pictures on facebook.. way too many.. way too lazy.. might upload a few i like tmr)

its been almost one month since i'm back. yet i still miss you as much.

janice. sharing is loving; loving is sharing.

i'm damn pissed with my grades and more with myself.

last sem i missed one mark to a Distinction for my plant biotech. this sem i missed one FUCKING mark to a distinction for consumer behaviour.

what the fuck is wrong with me. and i only got a pass for my biochem 2. and a meagre distinction for Marketing research and analysis.

i'm starting to seriously doubt my abilities and myself very much. last sem i can blame myself for not studying till 2 days before my paper. yet this sem, i really spent all of the 16 days studying. and the days before the paper mugging.

maybe i'm just not cut out to be anything. i'm really annoyed at myself, why can't i tell my mum i've got straight As. and she won't be so disappointed. my whole god damn life feels like its slipping from my hands. and i hate this feeling.

and i thought my best would be enough. apparently you need luck and alot of other factors.

janice. i'm just a bummer. and i hate myself.

MY GRADES ARE GOING TO BE OUT ON MONDAY.. THE SAME DAY AS MY HOILDAY. OMG.

it can either go both ways.

the way life plays tricks on me.

on a side note, i met uncle jon poh today at the ever hot tampines popular bookshop. can't wait to see jules and min and drea and zac and the rest.. its been too long.

janice. i'm so tired, singapore is way too crowded.

i met my darlings on tuesday for lunch at grace's workplace. the people working at TTSh are weird..

1. we said we were looking for her and she works at the inpatient pharmacy. so we wanted to wait outside. the woman at the information board at least repeated 5 times that we needed a pass to get in.

2. at the canteen, the people working at the dessert stall asked grace if she was a staff when she was wearing her uniform

it was a good lunch.. though we forgot to take pictures as we were busy eating and filling up grace's precious 45 min.. and those idiots were more happy to see what i bought for them rather than me.

how sad is that? hhahaha.. kidding..

janice, i've only been to the gym twice since i came back. bad bad bad.