lucky's friend just got raped and murdered yesterday.

i'm (we're) still reeling from shock.

she was from ECU. another uni in perth.

lucky knew her from her china hunan province.

may she R.I.P once her rapist is found.

may all my friends in Murdoch be vigilant and use the security escorts at night.

australia is such a unsafe place.

i really miss singapore.

janice. how i wish u are here holding me now. drive away the fears.

its 1am and i'm mugging my tutorials.. listening to nickelback's Far away. Lucky is not feeling well both mentally and physically. spent a few hours talking to her. 15 mins talking to fung kor. 20 mins to darling.

i've forgotten the reason why i'm blogging. the sudden spark of something that i wanted to type. the words don't seem to flow the moment i open this page.

i have a gift. a listening ear? i seem to be talking to sad, happy, grumpy people. and at least make them happier for a while. darling says my laughter work. (maybe its only for him..)

i have a gift. to predict what people need. what they will do next. what they might say soon.

i have a gift of looking at the wrong things, wrong places, wrong people. (its ironic that a call a negative thing a gift, its how u look at things again. perspective)

i have a gift of attracting weird people. 2 people have asked for my number on the same day. so annoyed. one at the library. and the other is lucky's friend who just had a 10 sec encounter with me, and has fallen head over heels. pestering her everyday. crazy guy.

its not the first time. God has been weird. He seems to put them to all come at the same time. but this time, my decision was easy. No number. No talk. one smile. goodbye.

janice. i hate you steven, u are a bastard. period.

Really burnt from the fact that my week break zoomed past.. now its back to 5 weeks of mugging then it will exams then i'll be home in my family's warmth..

well.. some pics i took over the week..
A PURPLE HYBRID OF A CAULIFLOWER AND BROCOLLI.. and yes they come with the leaves in aussie.. weird things people put in their mouths..

and another project up my sleeve.. a fed batch culture- chemostat.. that we BUILT FROM SCRATCH.. ok.. maybe thats a bit over.. we didn't literally make the beakers and etc.. but we planned the whole setup.. and connected and make sure it worked!!COOL YA!!???
maybe to you this might be just another science experiement.. but this is a proud product of my squabbling with a MCP!! seriously i have a wonder why i wasted so much time quarreling.. but it seemed to put him and his big ego in place. and poor betsy had to organise the whole team of 8.. *salutes!!

school starts in 10 hours.. hai.. more tuts.. lectures.. i wanna go home soon.. sometimes.. i feel that i came here to want to get over and go home. but when i'm at class.. i feel that i wanna learn and get my studies straight.. such an irony that i need to face everyday.. i just finished reading my book. its really a good book. i wanna read more of john irving's works.. but next weekend.. this week is meant for mugging yet again.

Revenge is a poison meant for others that we swallow. -a line from a promo of Life. a new american series

janice.. i miss u more.

when u lose something. deprived of something. u feel that u want to get that feeling back.

ITS NOT S E X!!

it seems that besides creepy crawlies.. only my band has the capability to send goose pimples all over even after watching the compeition video over and over. Cheryl taught me to download the video from youtube. ops.. but for my band!! (humans and excuses)

i guess. when its cold. when i'm bored (sounds co cliche).. i love to think of band. i have to admit that coming here was sort of an escape. since sec 2 i joined band. rose in the ranks and set up the alumni with tons of help of course. i was really tired. i was getting too old.. too outcasted. i was sick of practicing. doing uniform. waking up in the middle of the night with a new bright idea for the DM's uniform.

i wanted a life. but it didn't seem to daunt on me that band was already part of my life. i still get so excited talking about the band. bragging how hard those kids trained.

now looking at the video for 2006. every little formation brings back memories. like the fan props. how the alumni was a mini factory, how norman and wilson did the first 'draft' at kenrick's house. and then it grew. how wilson gave the tons of ideas for gimmicks. how hui xin and wei yuan trained for the 'solos'. and learning fight club. etc and etc. every part seemed to have grown on me.

band could be like a tatoo. u can choose to proudly display or hide it with new and flashy clothes. u may never be able to fully remove it from your skin. never be able to remove the ink that has seeped deep into your skin. it was painful to get it done. prick by prick. seemed to be in par with training.

but the rewards are?

janice. what are they?

today was A BORING DAY!!!

i spent my day @ home.. did my laundry.. after 3 weeks.. haa.. finally 'bathed' darling.. i think i'm going shopping tmr morning.. hopefully lucky can go with me.. well.. she really isn't that bad afterall la.. i guess she just gets annoying with waking me up and personal hygiene.. but i shall learn to close my eyes sometimes.. i know i have bad habits too la.. ahaha

well.. i've gotta learn to accept people.. and i've got to hail myself to the lab tmr for testings and sampling..

dinner was cooked by Wilford!! he cooked shanghainese rice cake.. shiok man...

and darling got full marks for his IPPT.. and demanded 25 ______ .. erm.. haha.. nvm.. haha.. ops

i've watched this movie on DVD called "the cider house rules" its a show about this man (tobey maguire) who grew up in an orphanage and now leaves his only known home to see the world. its set in old suburbs of England... really nice show.. with Michael Caine acting too.. if i got the names spelt wrong.. pardon me.. haha.. i just requested the book from the library.. by John Irving..

okie.. accounting project and situps next on my list..

janice.. i'm learning to cope!!

THESE FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN HECTIC. ITS NOW 1AM.. and i finally have time to sit down to blog. well lets start from saturday.

I WENT TO THE PERTH ROYAL SHOW!! its damn nice.. its like a farm show+ dog shows+ cat judging+ carnival+ theme park rides+ fire works. i spent a whole day there more than 12 hours.. and its so big.. weather was great..

i'll start by showing the FARM ANIMALS.. damn cute..

piggys.. hehe... piglets...
and i have NEVER seen so many sheep all together like that. they were held herer for shearing competitions and for the sheep dog competitions.. cool ya?

AND WE HAVE MULTICOLOURED SHEEP!! its just a spray that has colours..
and i fed a goat with my hands k!!!??? mehhh.... hahahmore goats... so camera friendly..baby alpakas.. (type of sheep.. forgot how to spell.. ) and mummy... hee.. i miss my mummy too.. and my companions of the day... michelle.. brie (cameron's sister) and sharon!!!
and we went to check out the cows.. this is my flatmate shalini's cow. the university vet school sends the cows for grading each year for the meat.. and they get slaughtered after this. its really so heart wrenching. Shalini and BBQ.. he has such a nice coat.. he won for his class and weight!! but i won't be able to see him anymore.
and a bloody BIG bull..and now its the dog gradings... the day i went had huskies... and they were so lazy...but they are so camera friendly, when i popped out the camera.. they smiled.. so excited!!!and chickens.. birds.. ducks.. my god!! so many animals..

and now for the fun rides!!

see the amount of people?? and i spent like 100 dollars on show bags.. they are kinda like goodies bag, but different companies eg lindt choc.. have diff bags.. and u buy.. i bought so much stuff for the alumni, my family, my besties and darling and his friends... and for MYSELF la..

and we took a chair lift into the sky!! wahaha... so fun!! and have your legs dangling in mid air.. cool!!! we were like 3 stories high!!

i sat with sharon.. who held my hand.. haha..
this was how high up we were!!!

and guess what i saw?? Zebrafish!!!

this really made me miss darling so muchhehe... darling with the fishes at IMCB...
the weather was just great... sunny and cool...

and sharon and michelle decided to take a ride on some super giddy ride that is the only one in the southern hemispere.. and they turned green.. ahaa... brie and i took the milder rides such as the splash down and the ferris wheel.. it was just great!!

the view was just wonderful and with the setting sun.. wwahhhh...
that green patch is the place where all the horse competitions take place... AND WE STAYED FOR FIREWORKS!!! ITS 1000X BETTER THAN NATIONAL DAY'S FIREWORKS!!! my mouth was pertually open through out the 20 mins... but my stupid camera sux...

okie.. that marks the end of royal show... we were beaten..

janice.. more shocking updates follows

sunday.. sharon's room was intruded and her lappy.. external hard disk.. hp and camera was stolen.. hai.. cause they didn't lock the door and these annoying perverts took her stuff and even took pics of her sleeping with HER camera.. and they accidentally tugged at her banket and she woke up.. but it was too late.. she called security.. they managed to stop some people that fit her descriptions.. but it seems that they stashed the stuff away.. and since monday is a public holiday here..

guess what.. POLICE ARE ALSO ON HOILDAY.. what is this man?? police should never have breaks cause the criminals are always not having breaks.. and they forensics called in today.. NOT COMING!!! cause its not a break in!! but its still theft right??

australian police are.. eh hem.. so inefficient.. BOO!!

so michelle and i went to buy dimsum for her and cheered her up...

Monday cooked and celebrated lucius' bd with the group and kaysee (annoying MCP.. i hate him) insisted that we have group meeting... hai.. this guy is another of the idiots that have added to my list of most hated boys ( i shall resist from naming him a guy.. its an insult). anyway.. he thinks he is damn high class.. and has such a BIG ego... and i don give him any face at all!! TOO BAD.. i'm not to be trifled with k!!

and i met lucius' flatmate kaynan.. he is from malaysia and from marching band too!! and he gave me a DVD of their competitions.. so sweet.. their style is so DCI.. but i'm watching more tmr... hopefully i'll give the alumni more ideas.

Lastly.. today is Jules's bd!! HAppy Birthday Gal!! went to see the doc this moring.. and my medication is SOOO expensive here... (thanks darling for waking me up.. hehe.. so sweet) and i bought her wine glasses and helped michelle with dinner with chai and daniel... slogged our lives out... but glad she and everyone enjoyed!! they have gone to the casino.. but i'm too tired...

just now i came back to the room to grab some stuff and i opened the room.. lucky was making out with her bf!!! SIAN... she called me an hour before and asked me what time i'll be home cause she wants to talk to me.. it was a ploy to ask what time i'll be home.. she could have just told me lor..

anyway.. ya.. she was so nervous and forbade me to turn on the lights.. i don wanna see any of HIS privates man.. ewww...

janice.. i need a break from annoying boys that supposed to be men... talking to darling always makes me better. mentally more sound.

i'm super annoyed yet again (whats new in my bloody life right?)

well.. i'm seriously having second thoughts about going shopping with lucky on sunday.. why?? cause she will work til like 1am on sat night. and she can sleep till 11.. by the time we reach there its like 12?? and then 3pm steven (her so called bf.. i don give a damn anymore).. is picking her up..

I detest him to the core. sorry man. its just too bad that i hate your rude attitude. even if u are shy. someone pours a drink for u or washes some dishes for u. just open ur god damn sealed mouth and say THANK YOU. XIE XIE.. whatever language u can speak man!!

and now she tells me that her friend is coming along. and chianians are like damn anal about shopping. hai.. ( i'm not saying that i have 'atas' taste but some of their clothes are like fashion of 10 yrs ago.. or some auntie print or super act cute)

and whats the MOST pissing thing? lucky borrows my clothes. and when i ask her to try a piece when we shop. she says its not her. annoyed. and i told her. u must try to find clothes that show off your good stuff and hide the flaws. she says. "my figure so good". don need la. hell to it. next she claims that make up makes no difference. but when she goes on dates she now must apply makeup. super annoyed. and she says she is listening to me.

as a human. u must make ur own mind and decide what u want for yourself in life. if u believe that u are perfect. that why the point listen to my 'crap' and change when u don believe. unless u believe.

don feel like going anymore.. i would rather go alone..

janice... life is not the way i want it to be. darling save me. ARRGH... KNN!!!

just some random pics of the week to ease my annoyed mood.. don wanna mention it here anymore.. talked to darling about it.. feeling so much better.. and i watched 'school of rock' on tv.. made me happy.. prison break 3 and heros 2 have starting airing here.. hehe... but i've gotta study!!! this pic was when conny made dinner for her bf andrew.. this is rock melon with a type of beef that tastes like ham...
and pasta.. that has potatos inside..
and this was the rest. where i ate dim sum with sharon and thier church people.. and i'm having dim sum this sat AGAIN... wth is with me and dim sum...
darling has SOC tmr.. good luck darling!!! and kor is booking out in 2 days!!! haha!!!

janice... all smiles.. still sulking a little...

no pics.. too busy.. too lazy..

didn't do well for my tests..

accounting- 59/100 (average of the class was 45/100)

hai.. feel sorry for myself..

anyway.. went to uncle's place for dinner today

THANKS FOR THE YUMMY FOOD!!

prison break 3 is out in aussie!! i miss the time i spent watching some episodes of prison break 2 with darling.. the rest is still at home.. haha.. i MUST go watch them and heros when i get home!! sorry darling.. made u copy for me..

janice.. off to record recipes...

DARLING JUST CALLED (OK I CALLED. BUT WE TALKED!!!)

NOT EXPECTING TO TALK TO HIM FOR SOMETIME.

FELT LIKE I HEARD HIS VOICE AFTER 10 YEARS!!

I MISS YOU!!

you just have that way of making my heart smile without a reason..

janice... 68 for my commercial law test!! sian work harder