i will fight this myself.. i can.. i will.. i must

Alumni has been taking some toll on my life.. I woke up to reality when kai yee said that i should 'don't care' abount the alumni. No one really knows how tired and mentally fatigue I am running this so called dream of having an alumni. Is it really my dream?? If not then whose it is... i feel that its no more my dream.. its my challenge... its my alumni...

Today.. i understood something... if no one wants to support this alumni.. i will... if no one wants to help me.. i will help myself.... I really wonder where is the integrity of these committee members who don't even help out.. well.. i will never know... where are those so called 'professional' alumni that say i'm not 'professional enough' Where are those freaking idiots that dare to say that about me behind my back without having the damn courage to say it in my face!!!!!!!!! Well... i'm throughly pissed....

i will not force those who do not wish to commit to stay in the committee... i'll rather have some people that are willing to help but don't know how to than those who are not willing... i would rather put all my effort to make this successful... i not only need to... i want to... Kenrick has done lots for this alumni... And i've spoken to Mr James Tan... well.. i will explain it out face to face to all my alumni very soon.. but still i would need to reorganize myself into battle mode and fight this battle alone.. i need support.. but those who i thought i can rely on have decided to quit the committee...

i will fight this myself... i can do it.... i will do it.... i must do it

Janice

today is really a very depressing day to start with.. with loads of tests and assignments to complete today.. i managed to scrap pass unhurt to a certain extent... its quite tiring to study in a polytechnic.. i feel that i haven really grown up since my secondary school days yet i seem to have matured in my thinking.. i still feel weird... well coming back to today.. i feel that its quite sad that we didnt manage to go to Dr Lim's house.. and i felt quite dejected that when i brought the sour plum jelly i made to school.. some of my classmates sad 'eee' at the sight of it and said it tasted weird... my eldest sis loved it.. and it was my first attempt making this flavour... could they have spared a thought at my feelings?? even though i didnt show it.. i was deeply hurt.... hiaz.. oh well.. and no one wanted to eat it... i'm glad that Dr lim ate them....

well.. tmr there is band and alumni meeting.. i doubt that it may be possible to enter the national band competition.. but i'll just it a shot... but the instruments are really a big problem...

i've got to get back to my projects....

Janice.. zoomz off

the year of the dog is here

life has been so routine and mundane that its getting boring... well.. its been the worse chinese new year that there has ever been.. life seems so different now.. the air is irritable to the extent of suffocating me.. maybe because this year my grandpa is no longer around... well life goes on.. theres lots of cooking tomorrow.. i'm tired....

Janice.. a weird year ahead

my life has not been getting better...

projects are pilling up... and i'm getting stressed.. exams are coming.. this year is going to be tough... i really dunno what will i face.. its like i have not been studying hard.. or shall i say that i have been slogging my life all for exams... and after the paper i just forget about it... now den i realise that i've been wrong all this while....

The open house was quite fun.. i kept playing with Miss Dino's cat.. Nigel.. haha.. he is so cute and tame... he loves the company of people and he ate out of my hand... haha.. so cute... he has an aircon room to sleep in man.. such a wonderful life... i love that little stinky thing.. Miss Dino says she will bathe him soon.. too busy with open house.. glad that its over..

i brought some korean uni students around too during the open house... they are really so different from us.. not my perception of a uni student.. but it was a great exposure... welll.. i don have the mood to type any more.. so off i go....

Janice.. bye

Life... sad or exciting??

I just had a gathering with some of the alumni members at chen pei's house on saturday after my CIP at the one room flats at circuit rd.. it was really an eye opener and an experience that i could say would make me wince and excited at the same time.

The CIP was to promote a healthy start programe to the low income people with kids.. we went from loan shark taunted houses to haunted houses to looking into their eyes and understanding their lives from their point. It was a bit scary and sad to see old people staying in filthy houses and young people with their kids being trapped in poverty.. but i guess this is all part of life.. well.. i hope that one day we can go help them clean up the houses.. it was really an experience.. i guess that without this CIP i would not have even had the chance to look into the one room flats that are slowly fading from the face of this society....

Well.. about the mini gathering.. i felt that it was quite a waste that many of them could not come... i was thinking of inviting them to my house for chinese new year.. but this year i can't celebrate as my grandpa passed away last year.. oh well.. i really feel so bad... haiz.. we watched so many movies la.. HORROR was not so bad after all.. i was covering myself with the blanket.. and chen pei was pulling it off.. it was missing stairs.. not a bad show afterall... den we watched those crappy M18 shows.. haha.. lame... so funny... but edwin fell asleep and started snoring... loudly.. well.. den slowly everyone started falling asleep... we finally went to sleep at 6... and woke up at 8... whoo... so there goes...

Janice.. goes back to mug projects.....

I just had a gathering with some of the alumni members at chen pei's house on saturday after my CIP at the one room flats at circuit rd.. it was really an eye opener and an experience that i could say would make me wince and excited at the same time.

The CIP was to promote a healthy start programe to the low income people with kids.. we went from loan shark taunted houses to haunted houses to looking into their eyes and understanding their lives from their point. It was a bit scary and sad to see old people staying in filthy houses and young people with their kids being trapped in poverty.. but i guess this is all part of life.. well.. i hope that one day we can go help them clean up the houses.. it was really an experience.. i guess that without this CIP i would not have even had the chance to look into the one room flats that are slowly fading from the face of this society....

Well.. about the mini gathering.. i felt that it was quite a waste that many of them could not come... i was thinking of inviting them to my house for chinese new year.. but this year i can't celebrate as my grandpa passed away last year.. oh well.. i really feel so bad... haiz.. we watched so many movies la.. HORROR was not so bad after all.. i was covering myself with the blanket.. and chen pei was pulling it off.. it was missing stairs.. not a bad show afterall... den we watched those crappy M18 shows.. haha.. lame... so funny... but edwin fell asleep and started snoring... loudly.. well.. den slowly everyone started falling asleep... we finally went to sleep at 6... and woke up at 8... whoo... so there goes...

Janice.. goes back to mug projects.....

Rain Rain Rain

Raining.. thats all that has been happening today.. not to mention yesterday... well it makes me wanna sleep the whole day.. hmm.. the sec one cca orientation day was full of excitment and fun i guess.. but i have to admit that i'm getting too old for this.. kids.... haha... well.. spf managed to get 140 new members.. and pyss 40.. but i guess.. after time.. most kids will quit... so hot.. so tiring.. weak la... kids nowadays are like cheese.... so sick of them sometimes... oh well.. nut i'm glad to see the band work together to achieve stuff.. it will be the last.. hope that they cherish what they have now.. so as to not regret in the future... mentioning about band... those freaking teachers changed band prac to mon wed and fri.. what crap is that.. now all the school alumni cant go down... saturdays without band is freaking sian and i hate it... i dont like it at all... PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!

But the cca orientation was quite rewarding in the sense it was a gathering of the 'old people' hahha.. i met xianglin.. so pretty now la... my wonderful daughter.. hahah... and marcus kor too.. with his younger sister.. we actually thought his maid was his mum.. so paisei la... wa piang... but still it was a day of laughter... but i'm still pissed with this dumb and brainless school with totally no planning of the future...

Janice... ZzZzZzZ

The long awaited pics

Well.. i have posted up all the nice pics on to my online photo album.. but these are some of my favourites of the new year party.. may u enjoy them!!! On the left is KAI YEE.. look at him playing with that paper ball... haha... so cute man....






Then... this is felix hugging kenrick.. haha.. i like the faces the best.. what sporting people they are.. i just asked them to pose and they did this.. or shall i say felix did this.. hahaha

Now... look at felix gorging away at the chicken wing... omg.. hahaha.. and lastly.. a picture on the wall that i secretly took.. haha.. look how sweet ben and vanessa were in primary school.. who can imagine the way they fight now.. aww...

Janice laughs

schoolllllllllllllll

well.. i'm slugging my life out in the school com lab now.. so tired.. how i wiah school didnt have to start.... sianz.... well.. i'll post all the new year pics on my online photo album soon.. when i have the time....

Janice.. so tired

My Fav Pic of 2005

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Originally uploaded by j@NicE.

This was taken 1 year ago at Janelle's house.. we went crazy taking pics la.. and sang the 'mao mao' song at different chords... nice to remember the past...

Janice reminising