LOOKING FORWARD.. time to say goodbye

well.. its been hectic life recently.. well its like school holidays just came and they just flew away like that (didnt really have a holiday to think abt it.. i went to school practically everyday)..
Just some updates of my life recently...

First things first... NORMAN PASSED HIS N LEVELS.. whoo.. that heaved a big burden off me.. but now its the bigger thing... O levels... well i need to tutor him again.. however life is full of constraints... money.. time... haiz... Next... My bag business with janelle was lanuched low key.. nobody is bidding for them.. so we are kinda sad.. what a bad way to start this new year and end the year.... haiz... well.. as for band.. they seem to be improving in the formations and it was a fruitful camp.. but no so good ROD to talk about.. well.. sometimes you need to plan for the future...

Well... as for the alumni.. its kinda sad for me.. as i realised that so many things are going on behind my back... well.. i've decided not to name any.. but i guess the alumni will never come up with so many people working against me.. mr poh and the band.. well sometimes i understand that they feel happy after graduating and stuff but always remember to be humble... i know they were upset about the acknowledgement matter however sometimes i have to agree that when you are a senior you cant expect too much... after being in this band for so long.. when i first came back i always wanted them to acknowledge that i'm there.. but after sometime... i just wanted the members to be happy.. just a simple laughter and a smile always brightens up my practices.. i'll always remember the excitement they had while snatching the chocolates.. haha.. kids... i just hope that my alumni will be more mature people.. i really hope that we can join the band competition.. i know many may say that i'm not professional enough.. but have they ever thought how much bargaining power the alumni has?? haiz.. i'm trying so hard.. the committee is not working.. well.. i guess.. next year i must plan matters out.. strating with a committee meeting... well... may my grandpa bless me..

this will be my last post of the year... so here goes to the TOP 10 Happiest Things of the Year:

10. Watching the members snatch chocolates

9. Norman passing his N levels

8. Watching the band grow 'bigger'

7. Being a senior... life is sweet with cute little juniors.. but i have to admit that i'm getting too old for them.. haha

6. Having my 5gb Zen Micro upgraded to 6gb

5. My parents approving of my dear

4. Passing all my subjects last Sem with 1 distinction..

3. Having my family with me when all things happen

2. Starting my business with janelle niang.. Items are posted on ebay!! we customise bags.. come to us if you want to customise your own bags!!

1. Knowing my dear.. my life has never been happier

well this year has ups and downs.. but i'll only mention 5 downs of this year:

5. Watching the new majors destroy the band's image at the NCO ceremony

4. Alumni behaving immaturely.. but i know they wil grow up one day.... i know that i'm not popular in the alumni.. but sometime i guess i dont need to be popular.. oh well

3. My dear pissing me off at times.. but i do the same to him too.. so.. we are quits.. haha

2. The band getting a silver at the indoor.. i'm not sad at them.. they did a great job.. its the judges.. not fair!! but its time to move on

1. Loosing my grandpa at 92 years old after living with him for 18 years.. i love u grandpa!!!

The year 2005 has been a fast year.. but its time to move on... will be going to gather at ben's house for 'countdown'?? haha.. with the alumni... well.. i'm looking forward to the next year...

Janice looks on to 2006 but not forgeting about 2005... Goodbye

How???????

janice is in the school com lab now.. so shag of school.. tired... school work has been piling up and i don like that.. but i guess thats all part of school.. norman's n level result will be out soon.. i'm getting worried.. haiz.. and the band cant be worse.. i heard from ben that the trumpet section is pulling the band down.. i really dont know how to help them.. they don even wanna try man.. so sad.. its like we try so hard for them but they don wanna try... haiz..

Janice is sad and worried

Oh yes.. dear came back from Genting.. whee... i dunno what he bought for me.. going to meet him later.. haha.. he made japanese yoyo friends.. gave him free oil for the yoyo.. haha.. well.. i guess that he is happy this way.. i just hope that he studies hard... like the whole world says i'm affecting his studies.. (even my mum la... wa piang) its not fully my fault!!!!! he always go out with his pals and play pool.. and he just bought a DS (something like a PSP) and he is going to play la.. i'm so worried for his grades.. i really want him to do well.. i know he wants to do well too...

Janice is still worried..........

contradicting moods (Excited or disappointed)

life has been quiet lately.. with so many projects and stuff.. i haven had time to take a rest... oh well.. i'm getting quite tired of posting blogs.. dunno why.. oh well.. everyone around me has or is going overseas.. so sianz.. i'm i'm the only stagnant person at home.. so sick... dear has gone to Genting for yo yo competion.. i miss him alot... my sis just came back from Taiwan... my parents are going to Thailand.. and my second sis to KL... so sad... oh well.. term test is coming... and i've gotta get back to study.. life is a circle... can you ever have the luck to break away from routine??? I didnt go for band yesterday.. i guess.. i gave myself a break to sort out my thoughts and refresh my page of life of band.... i guess as my bus passed TK.. i saw them training.. i wonder.. why are kids nowadays so spoilt.. they dont know how to cherish what they have now.. sometimes i really wanna cry out loud.. they are so selfish.. have they ever wondered how hard we struggled to get to today?? and now they wreak it in their hands.. they have never been looked down on by the school.. never been despised by the teachers.. telling us that band is useless.. but when we got the gold.. every turns around... Mr. James tan and the new Malay teacher from Pyss still told us.. 'Gold Gold Gold.. thats all you all want' i really feel like screaming at them.. isnt that what the school wants?? what hypocrites... they have never walked through the hardships with the band.. they only ride on the sucess of the band... what right do they have to say that?? i feel insulted....

Oh well.. Christmas is coming... and i'm going to get broke again.. what shall i do?? buy chocolates or candy canes for the whole band?? hmm...as the band gets bigger.. janice get 'broker'.. oh well.. i'll check out my pocket first... sometimes i wonder.. do they really feel gald that someone gives them something for Christmas?? every year.. they seem less and less gratitude.. its quite sad la.. but i guess.. it will come to a time when i no longer belong with them.. no longer hearts beating as one... no longer being the same person anymore...

Oh yes... Janelle and i have been thinking of going to business... we wanna design bags with paint and accessories and sell them.. we have just started.. so i'm excited.. haha... i think that i wanna go out of my comfort zone and see what the world can offer..

Janice... contradicting moods

haemocytometer

whooo...... life has made another turn.... i'm s freaking tired.. school has been crazy la.. labs.. counting cells.... my eyes hurt after looking at that freaking microscope after 3 hours.. haha.. tired.. and projects and tutorials are pilling up... whoo.. i'm really tired.. but i don even have time to slack... quizes are this week man.. next week too.. and term test are just around the corner.. i'm getting stressed again... putting on weight again.. sob.... but i've got no time to rest and cry over the fat me... haha.. now its back to finishing up the band uniform... trying to cut budget at every corner man.. so tired.. i've gotta rest soon... whee...

Janice goes to rest after counting Blood cells

the sky is blue

i'm back again.. school has been so busy that i don have time even to sleep.. haiz.. so much group work and laboratory stuff to do.. well it has been fun though.. i have been working very hard in school and it seems to be paying off... I'm getting better grades and i can answer my lecturer's questions most of the time.. but this is just the beginning and there is more to come soon... i have learnt how to draw blood and we practiced it on each other.. whoo.. 0.5ml of blood never seemed ending.... haha.. we are unoffical phlebotomist... hahah....

well my parents have met dear.. haha.. they approve of him.. how lucky.. how i wish his parents are just as nice as mine... but i haven meet them yet though.. haha.. oh well.... it will have to come soon... i'll just be prepared... my dear and i and my parents watched harry potter together.. so cool man.. hhah.. but he was tired half of the time though... oh yes... i just learnt how to play pool... haha.. dear taught me.. so paisei.. i'll only play with him or grace and meli.. i don wanna throw my face on the floor man....

about band... i haven been there in the weekdays.. so i've kinda ben missing out with alot of things and i've settled the lanyards... they look quite nice and i've been quite satisfied with the stuff i've been doing...well.. i dunno what will become of the band in the future.. but i've been really having a headache with the alumni... haiz... well.. i cant fail again.. well just have to try harder...

Janice.. hoping luck shines

school

whoo... school has started with a freaking bang la... hiaz... i've been so stressed lately.. keep having nightmares and stuff.. i haven been sleeping very well.. school work has been piling up this week and there are so many projects, reports and PBL( problem based learning) to do... haiz... i can't even do my band stuff under all these stress.... haiz.... make myself feel so useless.....

oh yes... about my dear.. haha.. he is back... and he is back in school too... so happy.... life seems better now... i haven been going to band lately.. too much school stuff..

oh well... need to get back to school work now....

Janice.... BYE....

Pent up

arrgh... i really wanna scream out loud.. all the pent up sadness is driving me mad.... so mentally tired... so draining when whatevr u do is not sucessful... school is starting too.... dear is still not back yet.. he told me he'll be back on saturday... but its over... haiz... i really hate waiting... for people.. for things to happen... so tired... cant stop the tears at the moment... haiz... so tired... i don wanna blog for now... not in the mood to type......

Janice leaves in tears

mental problem

well life has been quite sad lately... yes... SAD!!!!! haiz... i'm been burying myself with band stuff to do... its been enjoyable to have so many things to do.. learn alot on the way there.. but very tiring la.... hiaz... my life has been sad....

Reasons why Janice is sad:

1. SICK... sianz... i hate being sick... and down...
2. Dear is overseas... i miss dear man... haiz....
3. Dear is not telling me stuff.. he just keeps everything inside him... haiz... and its making me have a mental problem... i just get irritated so easily... haiz... even i get pissed off by myself.....

Janice says enough... not in the mood to blog... haiz

The mission 'sequel'

well.. haha.. shall not mention the mission for the moment.. when time is ripe i shall write about in here.. no worries...

Last saturday we celebrated chun wai's and ash's birthday.. dear went mad with them... yu heng was the funniest.. he acted drunk.. or maybe he was.. haha.. drank so much absolute vodka.. he was singing <> at the top of his voice at east coast park!!! haha.. so funny... due to the guys went mad drinking and playing PSP there... we resulted in taking cabs home.. haha... ziwei looked damn funny wearing dear's big slippers... haha.... so cute.... i also met my primary school classmate - Theresa there (dear is also from the same primary school as me)... haha..... it was quite a fun day... or shall i say fun night....

Now about band yesterday... haha... i'm really quite upset to find 4 of my trumpeters missing.. ( haiz... sianz.... ) Dominique is transfering school... Wei Yuan just skipped band for no reason... Fiona and stella QUIT band... i never understood why people just quit halfway... haiz.... and both their mothers don't allow them to come for band ( unless they have the same mother... i don't believe it....) i feel damn sad that my juniors are just going one by one... its quite sick la.... haiz.... its seriously in the mind i guess... my parents also wanted me to quit... ( had skin problems.. still having skin problems now too...) but i'm still here.... i dont care!!!! my parents couldnt make me quit... so.. here i am... i managed to score quite well for O's and managed all the school council stuff and band stuff... and i am still here... ( my TP results sux la... but its improving... i will make it better... I DON CARE!!!!)

Oh yes... we finally settled the songs for the SYF competition... haha... it is THE LAST BATTLE... oh well... if they don wanna work hard then there is nothing much i can do.... haiz... well... meeting was fun last night... its always funny with kai yee around... haha.... it ended at 10 plus... going to work later and meet dear after that.. cool right? i'm been quite busy lately... school is starting soon.... well.. i must do well this sem ( Ben is boasting about his good grades... i must do well too.. haha.... kidding.. i'm just jealous.. haha) oh well... when you will it.. it is no dream... haha....

Janice... goes off to do house work... THE MAID...

mission possible

well... today i'm back in school with dear... i've just eaten and i'm not hungry... haha... we are back in school for a secret mission... haha... tell u more soon...

Janice goes on a mission..