somehow i feel no urgency to work today.

somehow i miss you more today.

somehow i'm enjoying today.

somehow i found out there will be a new baby in our office today.

somehow i feel like lying on the floor to take a nap today.

somehow my students know how to cheer me up after looking at photos today.


somehow i feel blessed today.

somehow things feel different today.

janice. is looking forward to yesterday.

gross as it can be, i'm still thinking where to use my precious 1 day of paid leave.

haven't been blogging much because i've been reduced to becoming a dead pig by the time it hits 11pm. sometime i wonder why i lug my bloody lap top home to just leave it on the side table.

last sunday was zah's engagement and thanks to Kaiyee's friend who came and took pictures that put my camera to shame, we had an awesome time chilling, chatting and eating mee soto. which resulted in my longchamp having a mee soto smell. it seems that its rather good at absorbing scents.

haven't caught up with marcus in ages too.

i know i should upload more pictures, but its office time and i'm too lazy to wait for blogger to load them up.

yesterday was the busiest days of work and i had the most beautiful dream that i didn't need to go to work and i woke up to my nightmare. but i made it through a stronger and aching person. it was awesome having Ad teaching with me, finally someone i can chat with, and so it learns, the person that looks the most trusting can actually be the biggest blabber mouth. gross i hate office politics. and seriously i missed having someone to talk to. after that i met Re who was off to church for rehearsals, but it was nice just chatting with him for an hour. and he sent me back in the cab before chugging off for musical.

janice. its nice having someone open the cab door for you. :)

azzah asked me yesterday: so hows your bf? Do you miss me?
me: He is good, stressed over exams.. and no i don't really miss him.

why?
everyone always asks me, why am i so nonchalant about him not being here, why am i so cold, why don't i look the weeiest bit sad when i let him go?

how?
how can you not miss him? how can you cope?

the answer, by not thinking about him much. you see, people always seem to relate male- female relationships as love that brings you up yet down. but for me, i've come to terms with him not being around. for coming 2 and a half years, a super large chunk of it was LDR. so i try not to think about it at all. if he is here, its awesome, if he is not just be it.

some people may feel that i don't love him anymore or i've given up on this relationship. but seriously piss off. if you've never been in a LDR you have no right to comment on my life at all. its the toughest relationship i've been through. but yet through all the trials and tribunals i know somehow we'll pull through because love isn't about telling each other about love, its about sacrifices and sacrifices.

janice. i'm actually dead tired.

Just got an email from the Murdoch Ambassadors:

Hi Everyone,

We’ve got a tour booked for Albany on Friday 4^th December from 11:30am-12:30pm. There will be approximately 20 Year 11 students coming. If you’re available to take this tour please let me know.

Best of luck for the last week of semester and your exams

Sucks big time to be back in Singapore, sometimes.

met up with Marcus and Zah for her engagement yesterday. saw Sa'adah too! and OMG her whole family actually knows us by name! i mean i haven't been to her house since like what sec 4. i love her family to bits! anyway. i'll have to wait for pictures from GuoJie our photographer, who is such a cool dude. ha. miss all the arty farty people. and Marcus and i went to watch This Is It after that. OMG it was boring as hell. i respect MJ and the fact that he is into his music and he really knows his stuff. but oh gawd. his style is the same. but i guess thats what people love abt him. Respect.

janice. okay la. back to bloody work and phone calls. why did the weekend just disappear? WHY!

you know, sometimes you only realise how much you have missed out in someone else's life because you haven't seen them in ages.

met up with shafinah and dear lord, i haven't had so much to talk about with her.

janice. its time to catch up with old friends.

work has been "niap", shan't talk too much about it because it can be a pain and yet enduring at some times, and i've been relatively exhausted and midly sick. but i guess life can't be better. hubby has been sick too.

something to do is always better than nothing. and its something that i can learn so much from. like Re always says "think positively".

i heard 2 kids on the bus today. they seemed to be playing a "see who can close your eyes for the longest game"

and in the end they quarrelled.
you cheated. you opened your eyes first. i saw you open your eyes.

janice. i wonder how you can see with your eyes closed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUBBS!! SURPRISE!!
thanks to ben and kw for lending me a helping hand to get my present to him without him even suspecting! bought him an armani exchange shirt and thanks to marcus for shopping and trying it for me. :) the birthday boy is happy.

Met farz yesterday! and it reminded me how much i miss her, deep down. i really miss her, i miss her strong presence, no matter when whatever pulls me down, i always think of her. because she is just the most extraordinary person i know. really. it just amazes me, and i always feel so little beside her. she made me learn to see things in a different way. and her working style is so similar to mine. oh how i wish i can work with her. that would be literal work heaven.

janice. oh GOD! i have so many things to do with only 2 hands and 1 brain.

i feel quite upset no though work has been going on well. people that i've come to know and like here are all leaving/ left.

oh well. people come and go.

it seems in my workplace. i can never get used to anything. once i've gotten a hang of it, my boss will give me a new task or something more advanced. and its a chicken and egg thing.

janice. i will miss them

I was talking to one of the girls from a girls sec today, and she was telling me that her best friend was leaving to Brisbane for good today and she is so upset. and how when her family goes to Adelaide for hols she will fly over to visit her.

well. that really somehow made me think of the so many departures and arrivals of people in my life.

when we were young and restless, when money nothing meant more to us than asking our parents for it, when distance meant nothing that we could not overcome. It made me feel that she was so naive. but some where deep inside me, i've been her too. I've been there. But when you really get to knowing the hard facts that you have to pay for a few hundreds of air tickets, when your parents object, when there is actually so much nitty gritty stuff involved. You distant yourself. and you come to realise.

Hey, i can actually live without this person.

But i guess when you grow older, you tend to look at things so much differently, you open your mind out so much more. i'm glad i have. or else i'll be so upset now, because life is quite a pain without you.

quite is an understatement.

i like the smile on my parent's face when we give them their allowance.

Janice. it feels awesome to earn my own money.

went to the hippest place to fly kites. marina barrage. and surprise surprise, Singapore actually looks quite nice.

it was a awesomely hot day, which caused the photos to turn out very nice. but we very all super sticky after that. brought wewe along, that happy dog, thanks to Marcus who allowed her to ride his car.

but as always, the guys ended up doing the most work, from setting up the kites, attempting to fix them, buying new ones, flying them, attempting to catch the wind by running (yes RUNNING!! grace, Marcus and i were talking and suddenly an idiot was running towards us, and for a moment, we assumed it was some random idiot then it turns out it was Tingxuan with Janelle running and laughing behind him. GLAM!)

poor wewe. marcus is such a bully!

fixing the kites


tx being very sad. why can't my owl fly like the other kites? fly leh.
the happy dog= attention seeker= marcus lover.
love this shot= me chilling (slippers) while the guys are hard at work
















loved watching the sunset with my lovelies.
janice. i love my camera. who says i'm buying a new one?