I seriously hate waking up late!!!

the world world at home starts nagging at me!!

to do housework..

they don have compassion..

my finger is bleeding and swollen.. and i have to wash the dishes..

i wanna curse!!!

and my second sister's friend is at murdoch..

so i asked my sister if her friend can ask the hostel if i have a placing there since she is there..

then the whole world starts screaming

CAN'T YOU DO ANYTHING YOURSELF??

fuck...

den i replied... i applied for my uni.. applied for visa.. went for medical checkup... choose my plane dates.. bought my aussie stuff... applied for my hostel... ALL BY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!

and they said: BIG DEAL..

fuck...

now i'm pissed...

and i'm more pissed cause grace is not free to meet again TMR!!! its her birthday and we took time off...

SIAN$^&*$%&@

and i'm going with my poly gang to East coast later..

i'm going to blade... they are cycling

hope i don go too slow..

janice.. what a day to start a sunday... do i really look like i'm such a loser??
maybe i am.. i'm starting to doubt myself

I'm BACK from band..

i'm so lethardic from doing NOTHING.. yes.. absolutly zero...

cause i can't perform.. got uni stuff for a while that day.. SIAN..
yay.. i don need to do gimmicks... heh heh..

but.. while they were doing formations in the morning.. i was the phone mamasan!!!
lelong... lelong!!!!
but it was scrapped cause the springfielders can't participate.. why?? again because of a selfish teacher from Springfield.. James Tan.. hai... its quite sad.. depressing to see them so disappointed cause they arn't allowed to perform anymore.. and he has to take that chance away from them... but its a curse.. i hate him...

anyway.. my gals from SPF came all the way to Ping Yi.. how sweet!!!!

and they gave me THIS (look down!!!!)
SOOO sweet!!!!! i will bring this to aussie!!!

then we continued practice... it was so fun.. i must thank steph for standing in for me!!!

the drummers.. don they look so smart!!!!
ya.. my section.. shaking butts.. standing on chairs.. turning left right up down... (ok.. its all from the same angle.. cos janice is LAZY)
and we played 'its my life' by bon jovi... so syafiq is intending to sing ROCKER STYLE... heh heh.. somebody.. GIMMI A WIG!!! DANG!!!
the percussion buys strutting their gimmicks to the boys.. i think the band needs people like them to liven up the mood.. so bunch of laughing bags... so fun!!!and... after a tiring day of band... the streeeeetch of alumni... haha... thanks people for coming!!! the old bones all so tired.. haha...ken giving me and some of the rest a ride home.. glad we evened things out...

today 777 couples got married on 7 07 2007... and i tot 7 is not a very nice no... i prefer 9..

janice.. smiles... tired too... hee.. live earth!!

okay...

Hui xin called this afternoon asking if i was going Ping Yi tmr for band...

YES I AM!!!

cause they have something to gimmi...

haha..

whatever it might be.. its so sweet....

its these kids that made me go on for 4 yrs...

they might have been the most annoying pep in the world.. eg norman in sec sch!!!!

but eventually they drive me..

ok.. i've had a bloody tiring day...

oh.. i also recieved chelsea's sms reminder for band tmr..

seriously.. i wonder what they are up to..

anyway... i went to school to bind my heap of notes today.. (still another batch to go!!).. darling came to meet me.. so sweet ya?? haha...

and I ATE LUNCH AT DESIGN CANTEEN!!!..

my fav malay food stall!!! wahh.. SHIOK lar... drooling..my fav rendang beef.. with egg and vege.. haha.. and the sweet chili sauce!! wahhh

and after that he took a bus with me to bugis... meet kor to buy a bag for himself...

and i bought a pair of grey jeans... heez

Janice.. WEAR GREEN ON 7 AND 8TH JULY.. SUPPORT EARTH DAY!!! i'm wearing olive green!!!

i'm so tired... so much has been going on.. rahh i wanna smash bottles and vent some anger.. but in the mean time.. i'm still the same sweet ah girl... haha.. lame shit..

anyway.. i went out with darling yest... watched movie... and had dinner..
us in the bus... so grumpy to take photos.. haha... we took the bus to Cathay... and watched die hard 4.0...
guess what??
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the projector hanged 1 hr into the show... and people were damn funny.. they were shouting " projector kena hacked ar??" haha... so funny... but we got into the next show free.. (fine... i'm typical Sinagporean.. haha..) and we had complementary tickets for the next show we watch... ahahha.. planning to watch my wife is a gangster 3...

but the show was not bad... poor Maggie Q died.. i think she is quite hot.. ahahha... the plot was damn cool.. haha.. and funny... humour makes me feel better!!! the fighting scenes are so cool!!! i think the kung fu was shiok.. she really can kick... long legs help.. ahhaa...

after that we went Plaza Sing for dinner.. ate the grilled chicken rice again.. haha.. and darling wanted to get a drink... so we went to carefour... and he bought me HONEY STARS!!! i'm a happpy kid... hahah

SMILES!!! Captain Stars on the trail of honey stars in the galaxy

Den we wanted to find somewhere to chill.. so went to clarke quay to sit.. haha.. wearing a skirt makes it diff to sit along the river...

and there was this gal who seemed damn bloody depressed... she was drinking and smoking alone.. this guy then came.. (seemed like her friend).. and she threw something on him.. and started wailing and screaming... "why u do this to me?? WHY WHY WHY???"

and he walked away after 10 mins of no avail.. dunno if he is a loser.. or maybe i should pity him being the center of ridicule.. Darling asked me to give her a honey star.. haha... lame shit...

so we decided to look sad... (darling is damn good la.. emo kid.. ahahha.. i still look cute!!)
now he just sian... haha... ops.. i peeked at u.. ahhaha... shhh

what a beautiful morning... ahhahaa

i am seriously pissed now..

P-I-S-S-E-D..

shall not harp on it till tmr...

went to TP to bind my notes today.. (i've started packing)...

dear woke up just to acc me..

and he wanted to go bugis to pray.. thank the Gods for his driving test.. so i begged him to let me go... i was bored anyway... heh.. so we took the bus..



darling bought me rice.. i haven eaten dinner since they day before.. cheers to my black soya sauce... heh heh
temple at Si Ma Lu... i walked around inside for an eye opener...
i've lost weight... nice figure?? ahaha...den went with mummy.. daddy.. uncles and aunties to a vegetarian rest at Quality Hotel to try dishes for my cousin's wedding dinner in novem.. i won be here.. so i taste the food first.. haha.. how sweet.. the food was good... with the exception of the noodles... hee.. so full

janice... hai... can i smile again??? with so much that is going on in my life

okie... i just got home not long ago...


today's plans were fu*ked up lar..


why??


i rushed to complete all the alumni documents..


and took a cab down to ping yi..


cause norman said we were to meet mdm nava at 12nn..


den he forgot to tell ben and i that they didn't need us anymore..


bahh.. so we took away uncle ali's nasi bryani...


and i went to ben's hse...


ended up playing with his gerbils.. hehe.. cheered me up... so fuzzy..

I WANNA BRING THE SMALL FEMALE ONE HOME!!!!! not to mention.. i dropped her.. she kinded sprained her leg?? ops.. pls get well soon..


and i think this male b and w one looks like a guinea pig... haha

had so much fun playing with them and helping ben change the beddings..

den fung kor called
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watch transformers??
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OKAY!!! thanks kor for the movie treat!!! and the pop corn.. haha... it was a very very nice show... so heart warming... and so exciting... i'm seldom so engaged in a movie... haha... i give it 4 stars.. the plot was a bit cheesy.. haha...

and.. guess what came in the mail??

MY TP ALUMNI CARD!!!

hehe.. another alumni..

and i just talked to darling for almost 2 hrs...

janice.. very happy...

i just came back from the polyclinic... collected my inhalers... darling woke up early to pick me and acc me to the clinic.. thank you...
darling and i ate at parkway.. BAH CHOR MEE... hahha...

janice... its a bloody hot day.... rahhh

yup.. so gim kai will take over my place..

i'm seriously glad..

very happy indeed..

cause someone is willing and wants to do so...

i didn't really have much of a chioce 4 yrs ago..

maybe i'll call it selling my soul..

i've learnt too much..

and i've lost part of my life to band..

maybe the younger people (i'm not saying i'm very old!!!) won't understand how its like to sacrifice 4 yrs of your hoildays.. working time.. money (i've at least pumped $300 -$400 into the band).. sleeping time for band.. no rewards.. there is of course many learning points.. but coming to think of it.. the awards we work hard for are still never going to be recognised as ours.. when the whole world around you is moving on.. we are still with band.. its never a bad thing.. but its never about time management.. unless God decided to give me more than 24 hrs a day for time for peps other than band...

i need the other half of my life back...

i can never forget my roots...

and i was never a true leader.. its not in my blood..
(i'll be happy being a bimbo... just that i'm not pretty.. haha.. kidding)

i was too small..

and my voice was small too..

i've had my fair share of ignores and disrespect.. of which i think gim will cope with ease... and norman too.. i have to admit that men are better leaders...

i love my band...

i love it/them too much...

i salute ken..

his passion never dries out...

some part of me is always proud to be a Titan...

darling has had his fair share hearing me repeat my band stories and etc over and over again... sorry.. heh heh.. its quite boring to someone who doesn't understand how hard we slog..

i know that i might have been a bit unhappy with the way things were handled.. but i'm happy deep inside... i can really go off with a peace of mind... its going to be a tough ride...

janice is just an email away!!!

this post is not for political reasons.. i'm just airing my feelings!!! sometimes i feel band blogs are just so political... BORING...

I shall be happy...

i have learnt to let go so easily that i'm amazed by myself!!! WOW

and today i declare i'm not only a cam whore...

i have a bout of Narcissism :describes the character trait of self love..

I LOVE MYSELF!!!!

and everyone else...that loves me.. bahh

I just met with kor and azzah and ameily on friday.. after kor kor booked out on friday afternoon.. he was seriously deprived of women.. haha.. we just had dinner and ice cream.. and chatted.. haha... and kor just popped his question... what does this look like???................

and ameliy replied.. a d***head... ahahhaha.... we laughed damn loud at mac lor...

random pics... kor was so sweet to put his cap on my head when it was raining.. and he felt naked.. haha.. thanks kor...

and i met darling after that.. so sweet of u to just come impromptu... just to meet for a while...

janice.. i love these people that make me smile