blogger is PISSING ME OFF... i can't change the text colour..

anyway.. i finally went blading with dear on sunday at east coast park.. and we promised to do it every weekend.. whee... and i'm quite good at it ok.. haha... and i met weiqi (dear's cousin from milubing) there doing some baptism thing.. it was pure coincidence la.. i'm always lagging behind dear.. and just nice he turned around to check on me and he saw weiqi crossing the zebra crossing behind me!! haha.. funny ya?? oh well.. hopefully can blade with them soon.. haha... he was really nice.. i didn't talk much.. just laugh and smile.. haha.. lame shit.. anyway.. photos!!!

We walked from my house to dear's house to take a bus.. and i saw this bus stop!! its shelter is the other way round.. hee.. i sound like an idiot.
me on my blades...
a yellow fire hydrant... i only thought there were red ones!!!
We then went to parkway.. had some gui ling gao.. it was nice!!!
and headed back to my home.. haha..

Dear gave me a teddy!!! for our anniversary last month.. and i'm bringing it to aus!!


and he tried to eat my teddy!!!

janice.. happy..

gotta rush to settle my passport and uni stuff!!

ok.. i've been rather busy lately.. and blogger is once again annoying. Oh well.. the alumni BBQ and Chalet was really a bang. it was nice to see everyone come and go.. i had a nice time chatting with people. being a mamasan.. haha..

the chalet ambience was nice.. i really enjoyed it, there were birds and parrots and the place reminded me of australia.. but there were roaches. i hate that. but i was too tired at 4am to kill any of them.. so i went back to sleep.

i guess i've really let go of most stuff.. the day was really hectic and as Ben puts it.. we are kinda doing thankless jobs.. oh well.. i would rather not continue about the elites thing... its really difficult to satisfy everyone, and i can rather feel that coming since the day i was president. not much fucking damn given to me even though i've done so much stuff.. but i don't really care much now.. i didn't do all this for myself.. as long as the alumni gets going. i'm rather cool with being ignored and stuff. thats what i would really like though. rather then being thrust in the lime light. thats scary shit.

there is seriously too much photos to upload here. but i'll just choose some. haha.. Kenrick driving..
The chalet
the little cute bird in the nest in our chalet..
Group photos!!!
FOOD!!! we used coke to marinate the chicken.. it was an instant hit.. whooo

Activities going on... movies and board games.. haha

and the infamous melon head.. shafeeq tried to scare me with that.. haha...

okie.. i've gotta blog more.. haha
janice

i'm sleepy... had a sleepover last night with my besties.. again one short.. its a curse..

we didn't do much.

just eat dinner( i cooked). watch movies on tv. drink. laugh. kill roaches. scream. bitch around. bathe. miss meli. knock out. wake up. headache. shit. bye.

yup. pics will tell more. gotta get ready for meeting. (shan't comment about alumni at the moment. stressed!)

Dinner: stir fry pork with sichuan veg; xiao bai cai and mushroom chicken soup.
more cam whoring.
booze.
pretty me. =)
hunt down.

drunk. sleep. zzz

janice. my current life is a bang

clarke quay

I went clarke quay with janelle and meli on tues. it was good. just to spend time together. We ate at grains@ central and decided to sit along the river to drink. haha. it was freaking steep. and it was fun being a cam whore again. the verdict. I'm still the best camera women. haha. my angles are always the best!

cheers....

and meli and janelle bought me a pair of shoes!!!

I love u all!!! miss grace!! time to go drinking again

janice

bird

alright. i've got to admit this. work is utterly sad. my only motivation comes from using the com to upload my remaining pictures onto photobucket. work is just like a bottom less pit. i seriously detest that. I just ate last night's dinner for lunch. i'm still a bit hungry, gastric has been annoying me lately (fine. scold me. haha. i like when people care for me!) but i've been eating.

My whole body is aching to the core, period is coming, gastric is nudging.
i went to the gym with janelle yesterday at TP ( the whole world i met was asking why i was still back in school. old woman) after collecting my graduation robes, it looks alright on me, never anticipated that it would look nice on me. Nothing looks nice on me! freak. anyway, thats not the point. i ran for 20 mins straight. darn it. its like ALOT for me since i've been shunning the gym 80 years ago. and it was good. i didnt feel that i could sustain so long. then i did leg presses. the stupid gym equiptment is HEAVY. i didn't even use the weights. and it was heavy. oh well. hopefully those disgusting stuff that are potentially going to clog my arteries are being used up!

I quote from janelle: if u can't make the fats go away, i rather it be muscles.
my reply?: ya. i guess i'll rather be plump tone than fat flabby. haha.

and we went to the toilet after that. it was freaking sick. there was hair EVERYWHERE. janelle hates that. i decided. just clean myself with a wet towel and go home. (this is where it becomes exciting. wrong word. lets say interesting.)

we decided to walk past the astro turf (this has absolutely NOTHING to do with astro boy! haha) to get the the bus stop at the east gate. and there was this senile black pigeon on the road. the bus nearly went over it. but the driver stopped and reversed, but the dumb bird decided to follow the bus. so heroic janelle went to catch it. so smelly and it has parasites. i will never do that in my life. hence we placed in in my paper bag and took a cab to janelle's clinic. ( janelle says it will die if we leave it along e road).

and we took a cab. spent 8 bucks, janelle says we should split the PTS (put to sleep) fee which would most prob be 40 bucks. haha. there goes my clubbing money. but at least i did a good deed. poor bird. hai. i spent 30 bucks on a sick bird. haha.

i was dead beat and hungry on the way home. i ate like a bird yesterday. ate 2 popiahs for lunch, and some grapes, watermelon, vege for dinner. i was tired. slept on the couch till god knows when.

my life seems to be fated with tons of animals.

janice ( i'll upload pics when i'm free)

"Secluded" only exists in a person's heart; the actual distance does not really exist.

Because there is love; there is always hope

janice

I know i'm leaving
its just hard to give up
everything

as the dusk sets in
a sense of loneiness creeps in
into the center of my heart

the more i try to hold back
the tears just keep coming
the more i try to smile
i feel lost

i look at the setting sun
will tomorrow not come?
will the dog stop annoying me?

seeing you treat me for granted
i feel sad for myself
i want to turn my face away

stop sobbing
stop drinking

my broken heart
will you mend
will you let me be truly happy?

Your Weight is Ideal

Your BMI is 19.9 - a healthy BMI falls between 18.5 and 25 Congratulations, you are the perfect weight for your height. Even though you may not be entirely happy with your weight, you are healthy. So gain or lose a few pounds if you want, but don't go too crazy! Don't agree? Blame the government standards we based this test on!

Do You Need to Lose Weight?

Janice

freak my life la.. been damn busy.. meeting tons of people.. just logistics is crazy.. hai.. work is uber boring.. i sense shangwei being bias.. i hate this.. maybe i should tender early.. i can't take my mood having ups and downs every single working day.. and he freaking didn't allow me to take leave for SYF la.. and he said.. band don need you what.. they just sit down and play... shit that crap.. i guess no one will ever understand why we devote so much time for band.. i hate noobs that don't even try to understand..

janice.. uterly pissed.. maybe my period is coming

Life has never been better i guess.. i've never felt happier.. the SYF was just a blow.. Ping Yi got a silver and Springfield a bronze. But seriously.. i don't feel an ounce of sadness.. because after so many SYFs. i've learnt something.. its really not about the medal.. its about the competition spirit.. its about having fun and doing ur best.. and be happy!!!

I know that the springfielders are sad.. but i guess it was partly the alumni's fault.. not for this SYF.. but for the failure of teaching them that medals are not the most important thing. In SPF at my time.. we had to humble ourselves to get medals to satisfy the school's big ego just to let us have some space and room to practice.. new instruments.. but today.. all that has been replaced by arrogrance.. i hate it.. i hate the way it is.. hate is a strong yet apt word to use.


Farzana and i before SYF.. freak.. happiness..
us eating at lao pa sat.. haha.. the food was alright. i'm a camera whore. as syafiq puts it.. we are like tourist lei.. take photo every where.. haha..
The alumni at Ping Yi before going to take results.. we were really having fun.. its a competition that i really enjoyed!!

The saturday where band was absent we went to plat badminton.. and norman and wilson treated my lunch and a pig with my name.. its freaking cute!!! haha.. thanks guys.. i'm glad u all passed ur english...

janice.. back to work la!!

freak.. i seriously hate myself for being this way for crying each night till i grab a sip of alcohol to aid my tired brain to switch off..

my offer letter from murdoch has finally arrived.. i'm going to bring myself and the $$ over.. to hopefully learn more new things there.. but something is just creeping and overtaking my heart.. its the thought of going there alone..

i know everyone says i should count my blessings instead of my misfourtunes.. but i'm becomed so used to the life where i can just reach out and call anyone to go out.. and just hanging out with my pals talking nonsense and laughing till its almost midnight and then start freting if we can catch the sickening last bus back.. and the cycle begins again..
how will i miss the days i cuddle up in a warm seat beside my dear.. just falling asleep in his arms.. knowing that i'm safe..
and the days that i spent with my alumni.. the days we braved the sun.. rain.. fucking teachers from springfield.. and we conquered.. together..

But i promise to everyone that has been worrying over me.. I"LL STOP CRYING... till the day i leave.. i'm sure seeing everyone at the airport will make me weep.. but as ben says.. just cry la.. haha...

no matter how far i am.. i'll miss u guys.. thanks for everyone for being part of my life!!!

janice gives everyone a big BIG BIG BIG BIG hug..

PS: i should be flying off in late july and thanks to norman and wilson.. its been a pleasure teaching u two brats!! haha.. anyway.. i really appreciate lunch on sat.. don spend too much money ya?? i don eat much.. hee