clarke quay

I went clarke quay with janelle and meli on tues. it was good. just to spend time together. We ate at grains@ central and decided to sit along the river to drink. haha. it was freaking steep. and it was fun being a cam whore again. the verdict. I'm still the best camera women. haha. my angles are always the best!

cheers....

and meli and janelle bought me a pair of shoes!!!

I love u all!!! miss grace!! time to go drinking again

janice

bird

alright. i've got to admit this. work is utterly sad. my only motivation comes from using the com to upload my remaining pictures onto photobucket. work is just like a bottom less pit. i seriously detest that. I just ate last night's dinner for lunch. i'm still a bit hungry, gastric has been annoying me lately (fine. scold me. haha. i like when people care for me!) but i've been eating.

My whole body is aching to the core, period is coming, gastric is nudging.
i went to the gym with janelle yesterday at TP ( the whole world i met was asking why i was still back in school. old woman) after collecting my graduation robes, it looks alright on me, never anticipated that it would look nice on me. Nothing looks nice on me! freak. anyway, thats not the point. i ran for 20 mins straight. darn it. its like ALOT for me since i've been shunning the gym 80 years ago. and it was good. i didnt feel that i could sustain so long. then i did leg presses. the stupid gym equiptment is HEAVY. i didn't even use the weights. and it was heavy. oh well. hopefully those disgusting stuff that are potentially going to clog my arteries are being used up!

I quote from janelle: if u can't make the fats go away, i rather it be muscles.
my reply?: ya. i guess i'll rather be plump tone than fat flabby. haha.

and we went to the toilet after that. it was freaking sick. there was hair EVERYWHERE. janelle hates that. i decided. just clean myself with a wet towel and go home. (this is where it becomes exciting. wrong word. lets say interesting.)

we decided to walk past the astro turf (this has absolutely NOTHING to do with astro boy! haha) to get the the bus stop at the east gate. and there was this senile black pigeon on the road. the bus nearly went over it. but the driver stopped and reversed, but the dumb bird decided to follow the bus. so heroic janelle went to catch it. so smelly and it has parasites. i will never do that in my life. hence we placed in in my paper bag and took a cab to janelle's clinic. ( janelle says it will die if we leave it along e road).

and we took a cab. spent 8 bucks, janelle says we should split the PTS (put to sleep) fee which would most prob be 40 bucks. haha. there goes my clubbing money. but at least i did a good deed. poor bird. hai. i spent 30 bucks on a sick bird. haha.

i was dead beat and hungry on the way home. i ate like a bird yesterday. ate 2 popiahs for lunch, and some grapes, watermelon, vege for dinner. i was tired. slept on the couch till god knows when.

my life seems to be fated with tons of animals.

janice ( i'll upload pics when i'm free)

"Secluded" only exists in a person's heart; the actual distance does not really exist.

Because there is love; there is always hope

janice

I know i'm leaving
its just hard to give up
everything

as the dusk sets in
a sense of loneiness creeps in
into the center of my heart

the more i try to hold back
the tears just keep coming
the more i try to smile
i feel lost

i look at the setting sun
will tomorrow not come?
will the dog stop annoying me?

seeing you treat me for granted
i feel sad for myself
i want to turn my face away

stop sobbing
stop drinking

my broken heart
will you mend
will you let me be truly happy?

Your Weight is Ideal

Your BMI is 19.9 - a healthy BMI falls between 18.5 and 25 Congratulations, you are the perfect weight for your height. Even though you may not be entirely happy with your weight, you are healthy. So gain or lose a few pounds if you want, but don't go too crazy! Don't agree? Blame the government standards we based this test on!

Do You Need to Lose Weight?

Janice

freak my life la.. been damn busy.. meeting tons of people.. just logistics is crazy.. hai.. work is uber boring.. i sense shangwei being bias.. i hate this.. maybe i should tender early.. i can't take my mood having ups and downs every single working day.. and he freaking didn't allow me to take leave for SYF la.. and he said.. band don need you what.. they just sit down and play... shit that crap.. i guess no one will ever understand why we devote so much time for band.. i hate noobs that don't even try to understand..

janice.. uterly pissed.. maybe my period is coming

Life has never been better i guess.. i've never felt happier.. the SYF was just a blow.. Ping Yi got a silver and Springfield a bronze. But seriously.. i don't feel an ounce of sadness.. because after so many SYFs. i've learnt something.. its really not about the medal.. its about the competition spirit.. its about having fun and doing ur best.. and be happy!!!

I know that the springfielders are sad.. but i guess it was partly the alumni's fault.. not for this SYF.. but for the failure of teaching them that medals are not the most important thing. In SPF at my time.. we had to humble ourselves to get medals to satisfy the school's big ego just to let us have some space and room to practice.. new instruments.. but today.. all that has been replaced by arrogrance.. i hate it.. i hate the way it is.. hate is a strong yet apt word to use.


Farzana and i before SYF.. freak.. happiness..
us eating at lao pa sat.. haha.. the food was alright. i'm a camera whore. as syafiq puts it.. we are like tourist lei.. take photo every where.. haha..
The alumni at Ping Yi before going to take results.. we were really having fun.. its a competition that i really enjoyed!!

The saturday where band was absent we went to plat badminton.. and norman and wilson treated my lunch and a pig with my name.. its freaking cute!!! haha.. thanks guys.. i'm glad u all passed ur english...

janice.. back to work la!!

freak.. i seriously hate myself for being this way for crying each night till i grab a sip of alcohol to aid my tired brain to switch off..

my offer letter from murdoch has finally arrived.. i'm going to bring myself and the $$ over.. to hopefully learn more new things there.. but something is just creeping and overtaking my heart.. its the thought of going there alone..

i know everyone says i should count my blessings instead of my misfourtunes.. but i'm becomed so used to the life where i can just reach out and call anyone to go out.. and just hanging out with my pals talking nonsense and laughing till its almost midnight and then start freting if we can catch the sickening last bus back.. and the cycle begins again..
how will i miss the days i cuddle up in a warm seat beside my dear.. just falling asleep in his arms.. knowing that i'm safe..
and the days that i spent with my alumni.. the days we braved the sun.. rain.. fucking teachers from springfield.. and we conquered.. together..

But i promise to everyone that has been worrying over me.. I"LL STOP CRYING... till the day i leave.. i'm sure seeing everyone at the airport will make me weep.. but as ben says.. just cry la.. haha...

no matter how far i am.. i'll miss u guys.. thanks for everyone for being part of my life!!!

janice gives everyone a big BIG BIG BIG BIG hug..

PS: i should be flying off in late july and thanks to norman and wilson.. its been a pleasure teaching u two brats!! haha.. anyway.. i really appreciate lunch on sat.. don spend too much money ya?? i don eat much.. hee

Blogger is just pissing my life right off now. Its just so hard to get in and post my current annoyed mood (I’m typing this whole lot of crap in Microsoft word before my brain decides to vaporize them). Anyway.. continuing on.. the grad party was damn fun, clubbing was fun.. fine.. now I sound like a freaking noob. But seriously I don’t care.. haha.. I’ve thought over this freaking life I have. Why am I so sensitive to what others say about me? That frequent whisper behind my back. I DON’T WANT TO BOTHER ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO THAN LAUGH AT ME!!! I know that my alumnus are always joking.. and I was not angry with u guys. It was just an accumulation of stuff that made me pissed. But its all over now.. I’m over that totally! Haha.

Oh yes.. I sidetracked AGAIN. Hmm. A lot of really unexpected stuff happened though.. at the club I met QINQING!!! If u wanna know why she was there just go read her blog.. (Free advertisement!!) But it was really nice walking in and see her there. And I also met serena from sec school. And she was so surprised to see me. I was a freaking nerd in school, dear still claims I am la. Whatever!! Darn it. I should have taken her number. I really seem to miss some friends from sec school, especially from my lower sec class.. melody was not there.. working.. if fate allows.. maybe I’ll catch up with them before I leave ba. I seem to be rushing my whole life before I leave for overseas. Hai.. what an irony.. and I going to start a new life there? And come back to be the same Janice again?? Maybe not. MAYBE.

Dancing was fun.. meli is a great dancer and half way dancing, she looked at me and smiled : I can’t believe we are doing this!! (ok.. admit it.. initially I didn’t wanna dance.. but alcohol makes the brain go fuzzy. But I enjoyed it!) so I danced with tons of people. Erm let me see: meli, Janelle, grace, paul, hock (you can’t freaking dance la. Piece of wood.. forget about going to ‘bua chai’ la), dorothy, hui ling (vet science), lisa (she came!! With her sister, god knows why her pregnant sister came with her), ping ting, jed. Yup I think about it. Its fun to let go of all inhibitions to just be your true self for a moment. Janelle says I went wild. Haha.. they haven seen my wild side. *grins. Maybe its quite torturous to revert back but I got over that. Nightlife is seriously degrading on the body. Too much booze creates havoc in the liver.. Too much smoke in the lungs.

The hotel room stay was ok. That is all I’m going to say. I’ll upload the pics when Janelle sends me them.

Band was not bad yesterday.. please don’t let the nerves get them.. And I went with ben to the hospital to get his stupid wrist x- rayed. WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH MEN AND SOCCER!! The whole world gets injured.. dear.. hock.. norman... ben.. syafiq.. and the worse thing is the BIG men EGO.. its so difficult to get them to see a doc. Hai.. why am I worrying over the whole world. No wonder my hair is tuning white. SHIT!!!

Janice. *yawns

i shall stop whining about the boredoms of work. It seems to me that i've sort of transformed into a workaholic, though i'm not as bad as kaiyee. (talked to him online) but still i'm still stuck in the abyss. work just seems to keep piling, am i'm not stoping either. seems like another cat and mouse race which is probably to the power of infinity. When i proceed to uni, i guess this calling to studying might overpower me. its just hard to let go sometimes

janice

its lunch break... so bored.. SYF is coming in 20 plus days... this year i've be totally out-volved... its damn sad.. but work is so tiring!!! oh well... well Murdoch has given me an offer and i've accepted it... the final offer should arrive in a few weeks and then... i'll pay.. get my visa done... start packing.. and fly over in late july... yes.. however.. i won't announce when i'm leaving... i've never felt important.. so i guess its not very important for anyone to send me off... but i wanna have a nice gathering when i come back though... if there are tons of people sending me off.. i guess i don wanna leave anymore... my band.. my alumni.. my pals.. my friends..

hai... i'm waiting for my lunch to arrive.. tmr is grad party at gothem penthouse!! meli is not joining us... we should not pin too much hopes on anyone.... even ourselves.. i'm happy i still have grace and janelle

till then
janice