was playing around with the uni website.. and i found out that we actually do have a GPA system.. and FUCK.. my GPA is like 1.94 /4.. cause of all of the advanced standing i've received is credit.. therefore its like 2/4.. and last sem.. my only third year unit i got only a pass..

so it pulled it down..

arrgh.. why am i always the lousiest of all my friends? WHY!

i seem to suck at studies.. maybe i should have a taken a course that is easier to score. but wth.. i've been studying the whole day.

and i've completed alot.. will continue more studying as i type..

and i'm sure i can at least get 2 distinctions for 3 units.. so.. back to the notes.

janice.. i wanna go home..

Is being overseas better than staying back home?

so which one of a couple in a long distance relationship benefits more? the one back home? or the one alone in a foreign land?

Many will say without the blink of an eye, that the ones studying abroad are better off, cause we have a good life here, explore new interesting places, get to study and tour around, no one to keep an eye on us.

But, SERIOUSLY.. let stop painting such a wonderful picture, no one is better off than the other. When we are thrown into a weird and foreign place? where are our loved ones and family? back home. all we get are 2D images and voices.

in the relationship, everyone sacrifices something. and the main part of a long distance relationship? we both sacrifice the physical affection. but the ones overseas have to also sacrifice family, friends, a sheltered life.

lets be fair to everyone (though the world is never fair).. open your eyes to see the truth, don't perceive that being abroad is better.

every couple i see here has problems. including hock and i. but we learn to cope and manage through all the heartbreaks.

janice. its been a very very productive day. and i love you.

back from ksubi sale and garden city..

bought meli a dress from ksubi for her 21st!! and i finally found a white collared shirt for myself!that does not cost $50 to $60..

i'm really tired.. if u wanna read about the whole thing go read min's blog.. haha.. but i have to mention that the changing rooms were not rooms but room.. yes.. have a great time playing with your imagination..

i need to study hard.. come on!! i'm going to conquer my exams and head home.. heard from david that the results will be released end of june.. so tonight i will finish up my next 4 lectures..

janice.. off to shower.. then study..

mummy finally received her card.. haha.. so i won't set australian post on fire.. and i've also bought the $840 ticket.. cause from the way i see it.. fuel prices will continue to soar.. soon i'll need like 100000000000000000000 dollars to travel around the world.. or i should just marry a middle eastern oil tycoon.. hahahahhaha.. then i'll have lots lots of monies... i dunno how darling is going to come here next year..

some random thing.. i watched a news article on tv about some Christian thing about the world coming to an end or something.. and guess what.. the Priest said.. WE NEED TO PRAY... OMG! i don't mean to be offensive.. i believe in God.. but.. WHAT?? as if praying will solve all the world's problems. *glares..

arrgh.. i hate to study... niaghhh... and i miss hock.. i haven't heard his voice in years.. :( i've got absolutely no motivation.. my chapters are just crawling by..

OK! STUDY... for my future...

janice.. ksubi sale... tmr...

Qantas just cheated me of my feelings. the feeling of pouncing on a sale item.. thinking that you saved tons of money.. IN THE END.. its all a marketing lie.. its quite dumb for me to fall for it since i'm in marketing.. but ah well...

it said $298 for perth singapore return.. *twinkle.. must book before the rest!! after taxes.. $840.. WHAT THE HELL?? are fuel prices really that expensive?? 1 plane has like 100 plus passengers and the first and business class pay exorbitant amounts.. so.. WHY IS IT STILL SO GOD DAMN EXPENSIVE??

grr...

and AUSTRALIAN POST is the most inefficient post man.. and THEY also LIED TO ME!! on the website it said it takes 2-3 days for documents to be sent to Singapore. INSTEAD.. now 7 days have passed.. and today it just arrived in Singapore for delivery... they had to send it to SYDNEY.. for a reason that i do not know.. and.. yes.. MY MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY CARD IS LATE!!

janice.. liar liar.. i'll set you on fire..

just came back from the gym with daniel wilfred and min.. daniel is damn weird.. like every time we reach we say thanks and he said.. why must you thank me ALL the time? erm. cause we feel bad making you drive us? and etc? arrgh.. whatever.. i can never phantom the mind of a gay in denial.

i've spent half the day studying and the other half sleeping.. maybe slightly more than half.. hur

OMG..

last sem.. i studied the day before the paper.. what a procrastinator (I KNOW!).. now.. i tell my brain that exams are day after.. but subconsciously.. i know its next week..

skipped going to the beach to study.. those without exams are leaving for home. last sem i would complain that its so unfair.. but since when is life ever fair. being able to come here is telling me that life is actually relatively fair to me. so why keep poking and concentrating about the small percentage of unfair things. i should be a happier person and learn to love whats going on.

i went to the city yesterday.. and bought june's books and when shopping at supr'e..

hubby is having field camp in tekong with NO RECEPTION.. (most of the time).. but we still manage.

" miss you baby.. a little reception.. lol.. Hope this sms will be sent.. Love u.. Looking at the sky full of stars.. so many stars.. I wish you were here.."

so corny.. BUT IT MADE ME MELT!! ~ i likeeee... i can't wait to go home.. but till then.. let me enjoy whatever days i have left here.. YIPPEE!!

okie.. i'm internet quota is running low again.. grr..

janice.. study study study..

long forgotten photos:

well there has been so much tension every where lately even inside me internally, so much to do but yet i keep procrastinating which sucks the most. arrgh.

how i wish we didn't get into the car accident then i wouldn't need to settle my claims. i keep finding someone (thing) to blame but yet i know it was inevitable. alot of times when something bad happens people always say " if i didn't do this it wouldn't have happened" but then again something else might have happened. God has it all planned.

less sombre talk. i shall talk about my past week(s) in photos. :)

Pizza at Mundaring's Little Cesar's on 21st may.. SHIOK!!

see jon?? SO CUTE LEI!!!

group shot with all the yummy food. i started laughing at zac cause the moment we started eating, everyone just took a slice and munched.. zac on the other hand stacked a slice of each variety on his small plate. WHAT A GREEDY PIG!!

food glorious food.. it was said to be once the world's best pizza..

and they had gourmet dessert pizza!!!

after that we drove to the top of some hill which we saw the whole of perth. at night.. beautiful.. and joel had to scare me. he just HAD to.

my gross double chin.. ewww

Prawn Mee dinner at my place on thursday 22st May.

after dinner we headed to maccers to find jules and chris after their full dress rehearsal.
Min and her timer shots! haha.. (wilford is in the picture!) but on the way home, my beloved haviannas broke.. after 1 and a half year.. i still remember the day i spent $34.50 at city link NUM with my most comfy pair.. AND IT BROKE!!! at the car park and i had to walk in such a fashion that i was laughing at myself half the way up the slope. Jay replaced her slippers with mine so i could walk with ease . I LOVE HER!!her feet fit snugly into my broken slippers.. :(

friday 23rd may.. jules' and chris' acting and production play..

chris so man with val..

jules' the crazy old man with her pok radio and her groupmates

jules' and johnny...

after the play..

the flowers we made her..

finally.. saturday 24th may.. joel's famous roast dinner...

the way i look at this.. i must go to the gym every day... cause i cannot reject the wonderful food placed infront of me.

janice.. everyday we learn new things and learn how to cope with new situations. maybe i don't have drama in my life thats why i overreact to some things. or i just have too much pent up emotions.

yesterday was officially the LAST DAY OF SEMESTER!! and officially THE BEGINNING OF EXAMS!! cheeebbbbsss!!

and jules' play for acting and production was yesterday.. enjoyed most of the short plays.. but.. some was just a huh?? cause janice is NOT arty-farty.. :) it was really nice watching chris and jules act.. they were goooddd... and some of them were really funny.. but 1 just made me cringe.. it was a play set in Singapore... and the main character.. though she acted well.. the English was such an exaggeration of SINGLISH. WHAT THE HELL.. it was depressing.. DEPRESSING!!! to hear such terrible english being put up for a performance.

but overall. it was goooddd...

*pictures of jules looking like roy will be up soon.. she was total hawtness.. *droollsss

last night till 4am this morning.. was spent at sophia's place..playing mahjong.. YES!!! i only lost $1.20. kudos to me. after playing with jon drea and jules. i have determined what type of players we are:

jon: the pro one. has abilty to feel tiles, predict what everyone has and wants. has abilty to answer all types of questions posed to him and usually wins big.

drea: the blur and lucky one. usually in cahoots with jon, they cover for each others losses. haha. has ability to look very confused with the game but end up gaming very quickly. usually asks if she has enough tiles or can she game. wins many times but in small winnings.

jules: the vulgar one. has ability to curse and swear at each card. and points middle fingers for fun when no one feeds her tiles she wants. has converted tile names to stick and balls.. is super entertaining throughout game.

janice: the quiet one. has ability to sit there quietly to play game. looks the most cute but yet is the most decieving. loves to play with lex.

:) janice.. my life. study study study time!!

pictures /video of my mummy's birthday celebration.. and my card has NOT arrived.. i'm going to screw aust post on monday!!!

as time pass.

the time we spend together reduces due to work. bfs. family. money.

we ineviatability drift apart. make new friends. forge new relationships.

but i've never forgotten them. cause they tell me off. annoy me. reprimand me. laugh at me. show me what life is about. show me what is care. open my eyes to the side that i am always blind to. show me what is independence. brought me out of my comfort zone and out of my sheltered life. they love me as i am.

i love 'them' that are back in singapore. Janelle, Grace and Meli.

janice.. its always the countdown that makes my heart pound.

ps: please take care darling.

HAPPY XXth BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!

i love my mother for all the little and wonderful things she has done for me. have you said i love you to your mum today??

janice.. 3 more weeks.. zoom zoom zoom..

i'm so happy for kor..

*twinkle in your eyes.. i bet u can't sleep!!

:)

janice. i'm happy cause the people around me are smiling.

Sara Bareilles Lyrics
Love Song Lyrics

janice. i miss u.

in a large attempt to make myself happier which is seriously affected by the sudden pulses of contractions to purge my elixir of life out of me.

anyway. aside from the bleeding. i'm actually feeling much better than this afternoon. this month is not a good month and i've been having quite too many fainting spells due to blood loss. this spells evil.

Back to OP shop ball pics... it was really really fun to come think of it.. but alot of people didn't dress up(down)!! which defeats the "OP SHOP" purpose.. but the "chee" musketeers had tons of fun.. when we just arrived.. we almost wanted to cry cause we looked like the most OP SHOP out of everyone.. but eventually we settled in when most of the dressed up people turned up.. (JULES IS PIMP'IN)- check out her ah pek gold chain.. haha...
my lovely carole and i.. Flatmates of flat 2... me.. nurzhat.. mari and min... :)
and we spotted hairy fairy.. haha.. gone wild.. Daniel.. me.. titus (who actually has a bra.. and is damn "HOT"- look at his face!) hairy fairy and jules.jules' guy friends who dressed up!! complete with heels and bra( with tissue)..
after that we predrinks at michelle's flat before her birthday clubbing and before the incident.

janice. oh how time flies. i'm so sick of liars.

there is so much about the life of an international student that one will never know till we reach a land far far away.

there is so many unknown faces. so much paper work. so much settling in. so much money involved such that i'm just so god damn tired. and i just wanna go home. go home.

fuck..

so much nonsense..

having this accident has made me so tired. and now i have to settle so much claims and stuff.. so much work on hand. so much money matters. so many 21st presents. so many and so many more.

my head is just throbbing. and i'm still holding everything in.

janice.. actions speak louder than words.

yvonne. sorry for everything that was done said or mentioned. i cannot take back whatever that i have said or done. relationships are never easy when we are two thousand miles apart. never expect anyone to understand the vulnerability involved. just that the line between you and hock is so ambiguous but i still have much trust. thanks. I'm not saying that i was wrong or maligning you in anyway. just that giving my boyfriend intimate nicknames is not what a normal reasonable person would presume a normal friend would do. i hope to set things clear too. *no more nonsense.

http://vonx.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!bd4a5f81be88be60!732.entry/

i have realized that life itself is too precious

i have no idea what she posted on her msn space. maybe bitching about me being so insensitive to her feelings, having no idea what past she had with my boyfriend. but i don't care anymore.

cause. i have a better life to live. though there is much curiosity. but curiosity killed the cat. and i was the cat that nearly died in a car crash. lucky to escape unscathed. now i have only 8 lives life.

i got it from nuffnang... whoever that clicked that link to link it up to my blog. thanks. cause now i know who reads my place that is my second inner home. and i always remind myself, whatever i write or say is meant for the whole world to know. whatever i keep in my heart will only be for me to know.

janice. when i saw the link my heart skipped a beat. i was fuming. peace. (was is past tense)

its been the most traumatic night of my life..

we might seem to laugh it off.. but i swear it was so scary that i was shaking..

being involved in a motor collision is not an experience i want. Drea, min, jules and i were in a cab to Burswood to celebrate michelle's 21st.. and while making a right turn on a T junction on canning highway a van just came accelerating towards the right side of our cab. all i remember was headlights, car horn, tyre screeching and the sound of metal crumpling.

FUCK. we though we were going to die. i had my hands around my head and after the impact, jules min and i were squashed in 1 and a half seat. and everything else was relatively a blur. Min quickly got all of us out and we stood in the middle of the high way. my head was throbbing.. jules' arm was aching.. it was so shitty..

we didn't get a pic of the right side which was fully dented in...

i guess its the van driver's fault cause min saw the cabbie going on amber.. so.. the other guy was i have no i dea doing what.. and when min wanted to take photos of the scene.. he actually tried to block her. (the acts of guilty man)

the man that nearly killed us.

after that jon came to pick us.. but he couldn't stop along the highway.. so we had to climb a barrier and walked like 5 mins.. and since my head hurt they took me to the A&E.. but everything is ok. spent $221 for a peace of mind. and finally we all slept at 4am.. jules slept on the floor to accompany me..

THANKS JULES!! :) and THANKS JON :)

my head still has a slight swelling.. but everything is good... so everyone.. please don't worry.. thanks darling for keeping me company on the phone.. now everyone i care about means the world to me. i'm glad to be alive.

janice.. i'm NOT SLURRING LA!!!! *humph
he had a roo bar!! no wonder the impact was so hard that the taxi got flung parallel with the road.. (a roo bar is for drivers in the outback so when they drive along the highways they can repel a oncoming kangaroo and the impact of hitting it down won't dent their bonnet)

i'm absolutely tired today. since the early morning wake for the marketing trip with min and jules flanking me today. was absolutely entertaining for them but relatively boring for me since i came to the market like 4 or 5 times and i had so much on my mind.

after talking with drea jon and zac today.. arrgh.. i (we) wanna join them for dinner.. cheebs.. now i am so punching myself in the face for taking up a task which would probably piss me off eventually.. *curses and swears!!

anyways.. tonight we have OP SHOP BALL.. where we wear all the stuff from second hand or recycled stores.. i think jules is so going to win!! haha.. and i bought a DAMN "ORBIT" 50 cents top which is super flowery and 70s.. whahahahhaah.. i'm going to look so preeetay!! come ogle at me.. ahahaha..

and after that going to ruby room to club since its michelle's bd tmr.. i really don't enjoy clubbing that much without hock.. it seems so weird not to have him waiting outside the toilet for me.. buying drinks for me.. letting me cuddle up in his arms when we get home on the cab..

:( and i just saw something that sort of wants to make me laugh sarcastically at her.. trying too hard.. i simply loathe the sight of her comments.

PS: just go fuck yourself B! (and what the hell is B??) who ever still uses abbreviations for names should just shoot themselves in the brain and go back to secondary school.

janice. arrgh.. whatever.. i'm going to enjoy myself tonight. so you can go sulk and pout. bitch.

i sent an email to my parents.. (the first long email updating them and telling them about some more personal stuff..) and i got a reply from my dad..

"My dearest Jan

Daddy is still in Iran and will return to Singapore tomorrow. Glad that you are happy and doing well there. Remember, the best gift we can give you is your education so you must do the best you can. If you interested to continue with your studies to secure the honours degree we will continue to support you. No need to go back to work first as it is better not to have any gap in your course. I leave this to you. You have a long way to go in your life and choosing the right life partner is important. Just as we love you, We will love the one you choose.

Bye Love

Daddy"

i've really learnt to be so much more independent and learnt not to take things for granted. i love my parents. maybe cause i'm in such a westernised country.. i've learnt to be more open about stuff.. like telling my mum i love her.. and sending emails about personal stuff to my parents.. i really appreciate everything that has been done for me. sometimes people have just got to open their eyes and stop sulking and learn to appreciate what others have done for them..

:)

today is the official end of the 10 day fast.. and min has gone drinking and forgot to give me my pillow.. NIAGH.. so one more night marks the 11th night without my hock pillow.. arrgh..

janice.. stop sobbing and go do your sit ups

i overslept on mother's day.. and mummy called..

arrgh.. i am so terrible.. nvm.. i'll be the maid and chef when i get home.. so.. mummy can take a break. i was seriously considering taking honours since hock says he might wanna come here and study his 1 year bachelor.. but then again.. another $25 K will burn a big big hole in my parent's pockets..

hmm..

i need to earn money.. i need the urge to find a job.. unless i can get a scholarship.. but with my mediocre marks.. dream on man.

i'm really thankful to my parents for sending me here.. and i love them so much.. i guess we aren't the family that talks about everything.. most of the time we talk crap.. but nothing quite personal.. i feel so out of the place talking about very personal stuff with my mummy or sisters.

but.. i guess my family is still the best..

:)

and i played mahjong last night at jon's house.. JON IS SUCH A CHEATER!!! i lost like $9.. haha.. cause jon is too skillful.. oh well.. i'll count that ask paying fees for my refresher course.. i'll be back.. till then.. i'm so so sleepy..

debate went well.. though david was seriously annoying at some point.. kept trying to make me anxious. and poking me.. WTH! if i screwed up so will he.

arrgh..

the pains of being human.

janice. zzz

i have to agree that i'm the worse housemate ever.. If i get on Big brother.. i think i'll be voted out second.. Not first cause i look nice and sweet and ever deceiving..

i am like fucking stingy with my property.. maybe a better way to put it to my advantage would be that i take care of my stuff.. and definitely.. my stuff is meant to be there with me as priority..

and yes.. i have officially pissed my flatmate off who pissed me off in the first place.

ARGH. fuck her..

i just took back the extendable phone line that i bought. cause she keeps hogging the phone and is damn rude to my friends. i guess i'm just such a typical asian. if nothing benefits me, why bother maintaining a sour relationship with ignored hi-s in the morning and now upgraded to glares at the slight of me.

WTF lor..

anyways..

yesterday i spent the whole day with jules. Our new aim in perth life: i'll improve her Chinese.. and she'll improved my English.. i swear that maybe i'm trying too hard.. my English has deteriorated. its such a terrible thing to her myself speak with stutters and pauses cause the right word just does not want to release itself from the tip of my tongue.

Talking about English.. I bought a book from salvos.. a novel.. 4 novels in one... hur.. i've always liked to read.. YES!.. but i guess i'm too lazy to go FIND a book and etc.. you know the rest.. currently, i love the salvation army shops.. its the BEST place to find vintage bags, belts and watches.. yes! i bought a Cartier watch.. nice light brown strap with an oval face that is plated gold at the rims and has a roman numeric as the numbers.. CHIO-NESS!!

i used to be repulsive about second hand stuff.. i still wouldn't buy clothes.. but.. accessories and stuff.. SO VINTAGE!! and i have wonder eyes (self praise).. i can spot nice thing-ys chucked in a corner where no one can stop.. AWESOME!!

well.. i have a SUCKY debate on next Monday.

janice. i'm a scientist and give the most scientific and reasonable answers to questions. ah- HA!

EXCITING LIFE.. ~ read allllllllll about it...

Last Sunday...

BBQ at zac's place to welcome Min and Jon back.. which ironically jon didn't come and eat.. haha..

and we discussed the top 5 celebrites that we would wanna shag.. joel keeps insisting that kiera knightly is hot.. which we beg to differ...

* digressing a bit.. IRON MAN IS SUCH AN ENJOYABLE SHOW!!!!

therefore i added Robert Downey Jr to my list of 5.. of Ryan Phillipe, Shia LaBeouf (Transformers), Eric Szmanda (CSI) and and.. the last one maybe Goorge Clooney..

BACK to EARTH.. this week has been (will be) such a busy week..

Tuesday.. i joined fitness first.. it was quite a bomb.. so i have to cut down with shopping and stuff.. and start exercising man.. i am so proud of myself *claps.. cause i ran (walked) 6km.. for 1 hr... its time to get FIT FIT!!!

which made me have 5 blisters.. wrong shoes..

Wednesday.. VERY JAMMED PACK DAY WITH ACTIVITIES!!!

morning.. we went to walk the hounds..

i missed my sammy!!!!

min.. trying hard to tell her where to go after running..

after that.. Cot Beach.. (yes with blisters on my feet.. i still managed to get so much done.. ENDURANCE!!)

so prettaayy!!! sometimes i love perth.. i have ever considered moving here.. its just such an eye candy.. everything here looks out of the pictures.. and i feel so at ease here.. but.. everyone is back home.. the weigh in of pros and cons..

min and i... when i was viewing the pic later in the day.. i commented that i look like i'm not wearing anything.. and zac was like WHERE!!?? (zac.. zac.. zac...) haha..
Jules that gross shit bit my bikini strap.. if you think thats bad..
look what these 2 kukus did!!!!! jules actually stuffed it up her nose!!!!!!!!! and blew it out.. WHAT A GROSS PIECE OF SHIT!!!!
the toilets were not clean.. so miss I-AM-VERY-STERILE had decided to change outside.. change= tampons + panties + pantyliner + shorts..

janice = curtain + wet clothes rack + panty picker..

and a guy walked past twice! i bet he wanted a peek at her cheeks.. and he was laughing.. while my arms were aching...

JULES YOU OWE ME ONE!!!

Then we went to Big W...

Poor min.. can't shop... (jules and i are going today again!!) min tried to tempt me with her i let u hug your pillow you let me buy 1 thing... she is really addicted to shopping.. insane...

after ALL that.. the day was still not over... POKER NIGHT.. which Jules and Zac lost the first 2 rounds.. alliances gone bad...

in the end.. Hennie won the $24 dollars.. cheebs.. my skills need upgrading...

Yesterday.. JON COOKED LUNCH!!!!Happy family... with nice lunch.. THANKS JON!!!

and they have a (cute) naughty dog - LEX at home... which jules HATES!!! but Lex loves her... Now you see jules..now you don't.. AHAHA... we even told her to run.. so he would chase her.. I know we are such wonderful pals.. hahahai love love big dogs... if i have a big house next time.. i wanna keep a grey hound.. * please darling.. PLEASE!!!!Lex... SO CUTE RIGHT?? Uncle Jon spoils him so much...

thats almost the end of the week.. but i have so much more activities lined up.. reality check.. exams are in 25 days and i'll be home in 38 days...

I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself, rather than a velvet cushion in a crowd. - Henry David Thoreau

sometimes i enjoy solitude.. its great to have time alone..

janice.. 4 days without your voice.. i miss you. be safe.

The fast has Begun..

due to jules' intelligent idea.. we have decided to fast something that we "love" alot for 10 days..

min- SHOPPING.. (she raised the stakes to 14 days.. now terribly regretting her decision)
jules- SWEARING.. (was really fast to prevent us from asking her to fast from smoking for 10 days.. )
baby Daniel- BITCHING about his 2 favourite friends.
wilford- wanking.. (which i highly doubt he will adhere too..)
janice- my lovely hock pillow (which i am having withdrawal symtoms now..

WHICH I CANNOT.. i repeat.. I CANNOT SLEEP WITHOUT!!!!!!

but i managed to have a sort of restless night.. but caught some rest eventually.. hock now complains that i don't need him anymore.. haha..

enough of the sulking..

i'm going to the gym in an hour.. and watching iron man tonight...

walking the hounds and going to the beach and shopping tmr..

janice.. what a jammed packed week..

life has been rather boring and poor lately..

well.. while anticipating my anxious return.. i decided to just pack the stuff that i HAVE to bring back.. everything that is happening just makes me wanna go home.. i miss his warm hugs.. mum's cooking.. simple things are the things that we yearn the most.

back to the topic.. stuff such as stuff for mummy.. hock.. rwds.. meli's 21st bd.. clothes to sell... etc and etc..

and..

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ITS ALREADY 10KG!! cheebs.. how nice.. half of my luggage weight is like NOT MY STUFF.. hahah.. oh well.. what to do.. its a good reason to stop shopping.. which i have cut down since the first few weeks here...

and..

since there is a poster sale in uni..