i am SICK AND TIRED of people that CANNOT GROW UP AND ACT LIKE A MAN!!

cheebs..

my wonderful flatmate alex has made me seriously detest Caucasians more. make me think why in the earth does everyone think that whites are the most superior race?

anyway...

my point begins with having no shame k? every time someone offers you some food. WE DON'T BLOODY HELL GOBBLE EVERYTHING UP AT LIGHTNING SPEED. where is the shame?

and we eat a little and say thanks for the offer..

last night.. jay came over with her Mac dinner that she bought some for will.. and we were watching So You Think You Can Dance Australia.. AND JACK WON!! OMG!! ~ so hot so hot~~~!!!..

digressing back.. jay invited everyone to eat some fries.. we have had our dinner and were just chilling.. alex on the other hand grabbed handfuls of fries at ate them as if they were his.. i mean its JAY'S dinner.. i felt so bad for her.. (will says i should'nt be so petty.. but its not the first time... ARRGH!)

so i whispered into Alex's ears and said.. hey dude thats other people's dinner man.. slow down..

IMMEDIATELY.. he shot up and said. FINE!! i'll go find my OWN food... (wah.. cb la.. like some kid..) and then he added.. I DON'T HAVE MUCH FOOD LEFT YOU KNOW.. like thats my problem.. you have a car.. so don't be fucking lazy.. its not anyone's responsibility to get food into your system..

and kiddo (19 years old.. but) sulks and goes into his room after that.. i mean.. he is acting so much like a she.. wth lor.

and the last time we were discussing the show.. will and i said that Demi (black women) should win.. then he said.. NO.. she is so ugly and can't dance.. arrgh.. whatever.. and he said that we are the same colour as her thats why we support her..!!! WHAT THE HELL.. are Australians stupid or what.. in this world are there only 2 skin colours?? Black and white..

i was impressed by that statement.. totally..

janice the petty.. IMPRESSED ++

finally... we had a day of sun.. so we went to the beach.. and it seems that my period loves the beach too..

min and i decided to attempt to apply sun block in the car.. haha.. NOT BAD MAN!! my lancome is too blocking.. i came home with a slight tan that will fade in days.. arrgh..
i'm impressed with daniel's driving... gangsta driving...
me with my game boy micro..
Min and I...

anyway.. we saw these 2 guys with damn nice body.. so daniel and i dared min with $10.

(go up to the hot guys and say in a typical ASIAN TONE:)

hello hello.. I (asian name.. "you know who").. asian... want to take picture with handsome boy.. take picture take picture??

AHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA..

initially they thought she wanted them to take a photo of us.. but they finally got it and asked min.. is it because we are tall?? how intelligent.. god is fair.. with brauns.. he eliminates some brains..

and she did.. but this stupid girl asked halfway in perfect english where they were from.. Austria..

Minyi and her 2 tall hot Austrian men..

and so they offered to take a pic for us too.. haha...

later that night.. drea's friend from home joined us..

and i was tackling with the fish head till i wanted to cry.. thank god will came to help..FISH HEAD CURRY..

min.. drea and farieza... all having the same type of hoodies and longchamps..

janice.. came back from shopping.. bought my havaianas.. tee hee.. found my size in the kids.. whoo.. min and i are uber happy...

i miss you.

i miss the times of still laughter with janelle meli and grace.

i miss the lame moments with fung kor and fatimah and ditzy liza and my poly gang..

i miss the annoying tensions at home with my family.

i miss the nagging my daddy and mummy give.

i miss nagging at my sisters to keep the house neat.

i miss the childishness of band juniors.

i miss laughing at 'azzah with marcus kor and pei ling.

i miss bossing the alumni around.

i miss laughing at eng jing and senget.

i miss the heat in Singapore.

i know i will miss perth.

most of all. i miss hock.

janice. in the midst of all the missing parts of my life. put on hold. paused. i will press the play button. i will.

Bibra Lake.. ok.. not much of the lake is left cause summer just ended.. its more like a stream now.. but it was still fun going to feed the ducks.. but the bloody seagulls are damn annoying.. they are faster than the stupid ducks..

me getting chased by the gulls.. and escaping from bird shit... (move faster my short legs!)
min and drea...
A LARGE FLOCK OF GULLS ATTACKED OUT OF NO WHERE!! SHIT!!! cute little duckies...
so we fed them from the top!! by right we ain't supposed to feed them.. but we dirty asian (quote from baby daniel) donch know how to read signs! too bad
so instead of feeding ducks min decided to give the kids bread.. to feed the ducks.. and they were damn bloody hyper.. and while we were running from the intrusion of ducks and gulls.. they just stood there and laughed (not at us! at the birds! and their father - the type that wraps their head.. was freaky!).. we are such losers.. haha..
so the losers went to the playground (spot min at the back?) her angling is good! her face is just in between the poles of the swing.. OMG MIN.. total cam whore..

then it started to drizzle.. aussie weather is such a chore..
normal people walk to the car.. min.. on the other hand.. leaps..

then the rain stopped.. and we went to the murdoch farm..

janice.. the goat licked min's hand. aha.

i feel so motivated, i've been completing my assignments.. submitted my report that is due next monday! and i aspire to finish MDP's by this sunday! its due the following tuesday! hooya!~ and........................................... janice S-C-O-R-E-S!!!!!

its a bit late to blog about these stuff..

BUT WE MISS YOU JULESSSSSS!!!

This was us trying hard to weigh her luggage to make sure it wasn't overweight.. it was slightly.. but i guess her pretty cork face must have seduced the counter staff..

us waiting for her nice plane to take off.. poor jules.. 5 hrs without a cig must be terrible... drea and her STOP THE TOAD- Keep WA cane toad FREE!! ( look damn fugly in the photo... MIN and her BOOBY thing-Y!! haha)

And the day that we went to I-K-E-A!!! to eat meatballs!! (YUMMY!!)
and getting eating by animals!! FROGS..
SHARKS..
and DRAGONS??
and we are the three see no evil.. hear no evil and say no evil monkeys..

janice... i miss the ones in singapore.. hope mummy's cough gets better soon.. its time to get more studying done.. for "breek weak"

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!

min and drea surprised me today!! (all girls love surprises... )

i never expected it.. the day just seemed so normal.. with a tad of fishy-ness.. with joel cooking dinner.. and having no rice.. and having no groceries... but seriously.. i was dumb enough.. to actually believe the whole thing.. and wilford BUYING me bubble tea and complaining that i haven't asked him over for dinner for so long..

haha..

but everything was great.. i was walking to the kitchen and i heard whispers.. "keep quiet.. ya daya"

"SURPRISE" hahahahahahahahahahahah
the food they cooked was great (min can start to cook!! under guidance that is)

pictures soon..

tmr gotta wake up at 6am to go market.. hee..

janice.. my heart smiles.. (erase all unhappy thoughts from the mind)

today..

IS A KNN TERRIBLE DAY K??

i woke up to finish up my report.. figured out the graphs on my own, was so happy with myself, and i checked my MDP mid sem test. FAILED! WTH.. 9.3/20.

if i seriously can't score for the assignment and the exam i'm really screwed k?

i need to stay another semester here or overload. KNN la.. i studied fucking hard for that test!! i feel so cheated!! arrgh..

and when i tot i could get over that and finish up my report due later today.

i was 3/4 through and my clever lappy decided that the file should be corrupted.. and deleted my lab report. CHEEBYE!!

and can't revive it.. so now.. here i am.. almost redone with my report.. thank god i saved the data and graphs in excel instead of word.

janice. MICROSOFT VISTA SHOULD GO AND BURN ITSLEF! (after i'm done with my work)

i suddenly feel damn made use of.

promises made but sacrificed for the higher in line of priority.

jules has gone back to sg. min has a whole line of activities with drea.

time to enjoy my own company. and get my work done. i have no life. admit it.

hai.

feeling quite down. cause i'm quite tired of being the pacifier. most of the time in life, we can never get what we want. and i really wonder what do i want.

i have to finish at least half of my scientific report tonight. Tmr classes are on. friday is psy test (waking up at 8am and getting to school... ) sat morning going with cliff to the market at like 6am. i guess for this "household" i do sacrifice tons of partying. yeah, but no one forces me. i need a break.

i miss hanging out and having labs with lucius, betsy, lester and etc.

janice. who will see the sacrifices we make. bah.

i just realized that most of the people around me are going travelling mostly around aust and some diff parts of the world this winter holiday.



i feel kinda sad for myself in some way. (no sour grapes here k?)



not because i don't have the chance to go, cause its high time that i stop spending my parents hard earned money and start earning my own cash and use that to go hoildays. i guess i should be an adult and stop taking allowances. everytime mum gives me money i feel that i'm sucking her energy dry.



and bring them for a long earned hoilday.

its time to be adults. not saying that i don't love my friends. i still love them for the way they are. its just they way i look at things are different.


i always remember betsy saying that she never liked guys who show off and are so proud of their fast and prestgious cars. because thats not their money, its all their parents money. if they had earned that amount and paid for the car themselves, i would repect a man like that.


maybe thats why i still feel kinda 'out' here. like the poor kid. hmm. not very apt. but my writing skills needs tons of improvement.
janice. i love (miss) my parents for the good life. i will give them one too.

just watched the videos (who are cut here and there to my displeasure.. but thanks din!!)

people (band people) have always asked, why ain't i supporting my own mother school. my "own" band.

firstly cause i hate springfield. for most of the things that she has given me. i hate james tan for all the terrible things he gave to the band. i hate the senior in band who left me and the section all stranded in SYF 2002.

cause of the culture that springfield has.

cause of all of the competitiveness. after shredding down all the layers of scheming and plotting and need for medals.

what do we have left?

i seek solace in Ping Yi, cause thats where i learnt the most. to care for my section, my band members, to do the best i can, to have limits as high as the sky. when my sectional leader dumped us there. i took on the role of SL after joining band for 1 yr. I learnt from the tears, the sweat, the hate for Ben (being my partner throughout the WHOLE BLOODY FORMATION!); i learnt to love the culture of the Kampong and family.

though i've sort of left the band. i always will miss the times.

but.

i feel happy that Springfield is back where i began. cause i guess as humans we must learn the hard way. Complacency ruined everything. i always loved and love my band juniors. but circumstances make me draw lines, build fortresses, set up walls in our hearts.

i know tons of people will hate me for posting this. but. who doesn't hate me. as the alumni president, i felt everything, the raw crudeness of feelings and emotions.

janice. if i can relive my life, i still wanna go to springfield, cause through hate we appreciate love.

I'M SO PROUD OF NASSRIQ!!

the internet here is really damn annoying..

i miss singapore's tech savy-ness..

i miss my band.

i miss not being part of them.

i miss being the proud "designer" of the DM uniforms.

but..

i love life here too.

i love this sem.

grades are getting better.. average Distinction for 2 out of 3 units..

i feel like walking to school to download the video from youtube. (random..)

okie.. maybe i shall go..

janice... i miss the good times.. love the better times.... dread the wonderous times.. its such a pain to think of how much i miss back home.

just got the pictures from our random days in village.. one wednesday.. min and i were heading to school for lunch and stuff and she saw this pigeon stupidly fluttering towards the glass panels hoping to escape from the evil claws of min.. hahaha...desperate flights...so i decided to save it by grabbing a plank from the discarded furniture of the burnt flat to steer it into the right direction..and janice saves the bird!!! kudos...

and joel invited us to his place on the 12th for po- piah dinner.. which i supposedly helped (i ended up cooking.. hmm)

In the kitchen:

joel: eh cook the egg k?? your egg with sweet chili is power one!!
simon: eh what the empress dowager called in chinese?
joel.. erm. HUANG TAI HOU?
simon: call janice dan niang niang..
me: -____-" cheebs.... not funny k???

zac, jules and simon (who looks super TAK GLAM in jules' snow cap)
joel gorging himself and zac making spaceship po-piah..
us sitting at the patio swing bench thingy... so nice...
and their dog THUNDER IS SUPER SUPER CUTE.. and intelligent.... awww..
I <3 thunder!!!

heard that Ping yi got a silver medal.. was so excited when i called ben.

Me: hi ben are you at SYF?
Ben: erm wrong number.
me: THIS IS JANICE CALLING FROM AUS!!
Ben: OH... hi! haha.. Ping yi is on now.
Me: NOW?!
Ben: YA NOW!!!
(what nice timing)



so finally when i called again it was SPF's turn... and we talked..

finally i recieved the results from norman, ben and farzana..



GOOD JOB!! though i can't see.. (AND NO IDIOT HAS UPLOADED THE VIDEOS UP to youtube!)



i guess its all back to square one. just that we now stand at different sides of the square gazing at different parts, some look outside the square for new distant pastures, some look for familiar places within the sqaure.



back to me.. Marketing and Advertising Law midsem today was alright.. and i just got back 3 of my reports for Plant Biotech.. and its a DISTINCTION!! yippee...



my rest is well needed..



janice.. waiting to ring u..

i feel so excited.

good luck Ping Yi..

i am waiting to call home.. to call fuzzy to hear the results..

OMG!

i wish i can stream it off line now. real time.

i'm really really tired today..

not to mention that i'm also relatively poor.. i feel quite useless at the moment.. i guess next sem i will need to get a job. i should stop living off my parents. its time to buckle up and be independent.

hai.

i need some sleep too..

test yesterday was a killer. i wrote at the fastest lightning speed my bloody hands will take me for 1 hour non stop.. and still.. i could not finish my management and development planning mid sem.

steve has just given me a new reason to hate him. beside the fact that his paper is on the last day of exam week. his always sarcastic jokes during tut. his super i know it all attitude.

i still feel he teaches well. cheebs

and next monday i have 1 more lab report and 1 more mid sem. and i'm skipping adam's party on sat!! sobs..


went to the psychology test with min today and she had to drink a protein shake.. which she eventually vomited out. mine is next friday. hopefully i'll pull through and earn $40 bucks.

ok. fuck. this is really random, i'm just using it to kill some time.. will go back to studying later.

love janice. i need you.

i like lonely days.

i get to enjoy myself. talking to myself. reminiscing about things i love. sharing my deepest secrets to myself.

i think i am narcissistic.

i enjoy sitting at the patio at chilly dusk.

watch the sun set.

i enjoy listening to his voice in the dark.

i enjoy my personal space.

i enjoy doing what i like to do.

i enjoy watching SYF videos once in a while.

good luck my dears. love and miss the times spent on the field. enjoy the process.

janice. till then. i'm still upset that i'm missing so much goodies here and back home. sacrifices.

Tagged by Suet Jing.. which is long overdue.. sorry my dear.. hur hur..

1] At what age do you wish to marry? (GET MARRIED)
as said.. i can get only get married when hock strikes toto.. which might never happen.. so therefore.. i either find a new man.. or i'll just never get married.. we'll just be de-facto

2] What i want the most now?
if its a thing.. its my degree.. at this point i'm so tired from studying.. or maybe i want more money.. or a nicer face.. or... or... or... hmm.. this is never ending.. (as seen, my english sucks. cause i don not understand what is MOST) (i did not answer this question truthfully.. hee)

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
no one.. everyone lies at some point of time..

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
no.. i presumably feel that i'm short, fat and ugly. ok.. maybe not that ugly.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
i do not want my dreams to come true.. cause all my dreams are either nightmares or weird dreams.. ahahah.. i mean W_E_I_R_D!!!

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
i study science remember?? rainbows don't only form only after rain.. they are due to the slowing down of white light under a spectrum... ya da ya da...

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my sanity...

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
maybe.. that depends how eternity is defined..

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
i think i did 10 months ago.. ops..

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
loyal. loud. sweet. always happy and smiling. pretty. sometimes clueless. (i also do not understand the number 3)

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
the higher the expectations the harder it is for him to match up to what i want. cause what i want is not what i need. he is almost perfect. (shall not make you too happy. humph.. we must always have room for improvement!)

12] What feeling do you hate the most?
feelings all evoke emotions; good or bad. i love them all.. cause they make up me.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yup.. that means acquaintances do not mean friendships..

14] Do you believe in God?
disliking service does not mean i do not believe.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my family and the boy, they sacrificed alot for me to be here.

16] Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
a NEED?? yeah.. but not a boyfriend. i thank him for being my councillor when i'm sad, doctor when i'm sick, partner when i need someone to hold me and walk with me, a warmth around me.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
i think i've been trying quite alot of new things in the past year. so.. what is my comfort zone?

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
be myself. they accept me for who i am.

19] Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
stuck in some lab doing tests.

20] Define Love.
.....

People who've been tagged:
Jules.. (who most prob will not bother. haha)
Min.. (who would gladly blog 24 hrs a day)
Janelle (who would most prob not read this till 1 year later.. heez)
Gracie (who is too busy in the pharmacy)

janice.. my eyes are POPPING OUT.. and hubby is NOT in a good mooooooddd... hmm..

called fung last night.. it was a good half hour talk.. i miss everyone in singapore..

but the last straw came at 1130pm..

THIS IS CRAP!!!

nahhhhh..... damn annoyed..... since last night.

i have to wait 10 f.days for my last paper which is on the last day of exams.. so i have to bleedy wait till 14th can i can fly back home. KNN!!!!!!! (which is fully booked!!)

that means..

i have to wait a few more days till i can see hubby and my family...

i will have to give marcus' commissioning parade a miss.. shit!

i will have to go through the thought of seeing everyone leaving..

janice.. thank god i still have min and drea..

sometimes

being able to cook and etc - nutshell- domesticated is not as nice as it seems

and i am not satisfied with all these jokes.

its not funny when you get sterotyped as some housewife or some fugly auntie.

now i am really sent into a frenzy which i seem much normal when i'm around people.

nvm.

i shall not stoop myself to the level that poke jokes at me. cause they can't cook to save themselves.

no my darlings.. not u.. i know you babes love me.

arrgh.

i'll just get back to studies (which is suppposed to take my insane mind off this annoying SHIT!)

janice.. i know i'm not ugly. totally.

"take life with a pinch of salt. it will taste better after that"- janice

i feel quite sad for my boyfriend.

who saw in terror my ugly ugLY UGLY sec school photo...

who said he wanted to box my photo.

sorry that you had to see such a "wonderful' photo.

its to prepare you for the future.

ahahaha..

"but i think you look prettier than that when you wake up in the morning"

haha..

the past is a memory, whether good or bad

janice.. you are lucky that i posted a nice suave photo of u. SO DON'T COMPLAIN! i still love u.

the trip to canning vale market in the cold rain was seriously rewarding.. i bought a shit load of pear.. sweet soft pears.. that were $10.. haha.. thanks to cliff who carried and brought me to all the places..

but i fell down on my knee.. slipped.. now my bloody knee is bruised..

and i bought crabs.. so..

dinner last night was chili crab.. ta da.. my cooking has improved.. just that it was a premix la.. ahah..

before that ariel, jules and i went to subiaco... and jules bought her NUTS...

then i brought them to see the murdoch farm.. nu- mee.. grey hounds in the farm.. yest we saw goofy... i love the hounds... i miss walking them so much. they are such stress relievers. ariel with the goats.. jules had fun feeding them??


the person trying to get attention from the sheep that only gave her straight faces.. which entertained her for 10mins.. haha..
and.. she managed to get a horse to come.. which jules managed to pat.. ahahahahhahaha.. and she was so scared it will eat her snow cap..
jules the farm girl (animal)
and we saw a sperm whale skull in school.

janice.. now how interesting is the science blocks?

he said something that touched me.

he said that why he took the photos was not to hurt me, but to show me that he has nothing to hide. everyone has their different way of expression.

and i think honesty is the best policy in a relationship.

so i love 'he' for his honesty.

i thank him for thinking for me before anything else. thinking how we can't go out till too late cause my mum gets upset.

(please do not remind me that i'm actually turning 21 this year yet my mum still gets upset if i come home after 2am).. sucks to be me sometimes.

janice.. i need to sleep.. going to canning vale market at 630am with clifford.. cheebs i need sleep...

i trust and love you.

i miss your sleepy face..
i love this photo of u.. haha..
just to remember how cork i looked in sec school.. one of the better and worse times of life.

janice.. changes for the better..

i just recieved the pics from Jon's wonderful dinner- it was the dinner before mambo night. and it was a feast. we were so filled with glorious food. simon and his vintage cute car!!!
min and i inside his car.. OMG@@!!!
jon, drea and cliff worked hard on cooking all these super duper nice food.. that we were so happy to be filled with.. but we were so full after that.. its good to be greedy at wonderful dinners.. ahahhaa.
group photo!! zac.. simon.. drea.. cliff.. jules (talking to mummy), min and i.. (jon was busy cooking i think.. )
min and i...
min with her little creatures.. and jules.. but when she drinks too much...

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she becomes obsessed with jules' fronts.. hahah... and she tried getting them drunk.. hai.. min in a nutshell.. haha... so cute!!the very tired cook.. and me.. THANKS JON!!! back in sg...

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now.. from yesterday's shopping trip and dinner which i cooked prawn mee.kai's penguin (kai is drea's landlord's son).. and he is damn cute.. made her put his penguin in her car.. hahaha..
groupie photos.. ariel looks stoned.. seems ready for army.. not bad..

so we spent like 4 hours shopping.. OMG..

then headed back home for dinner prep..

ariel very hard working peeling shells

A: very COOOLLLDD.. my fingers are numb...

A: eee.. yucks whats this thing coming out from the head?

A: i think i'm getting a hang of this

A: my hands smell like prawns now!

A: i think its karma. i keep eating the prawns half shelled

"-____-"

the while the mordells for my clothes were doing the shoots outside.. simon turned up with flowers for...

drea.. from jon (back in sg).. damn sweet.. drea was smiling from ear to ear.. so pretty hor... pretty flowers.. pretty girl..
and dinner is almost ready!!

you tiao with mayo.. haha.. damn nice...

and EVERYONE.. THANKS FOR COMING!!!

(clockwise from wilford right in front, jay, simon, drea, me, cute daniel, zac, clifford, jules, ariel and min!!) joel turned up later... so total 12 people!! i'm goooodd!!

janice.. okie.. i need sleep now.. heez