i'm so anxious to go home..

the heart just keeos wondering..

can't sit down to study for this bloody exam tmr..

i know after this paper i'll be free..

officially done with this semester.

my first semester alone in australia

in murdoch university

what an accomplishment.
(hey its not easy staying alone and being independent k??!!!)

okie...

i've GOT TO get down with this exam.. while everyone else is partying!!! cb...

and then i know i can SMILE...

janice.. time is damn slow... arrghrghrgrhgr....

finally ITS TUESDAY!!!

i think darling and i are so weird.. i always get upset over the same thing.. and he gets upset that i'm upset over the same thing!!

haha..

i'm too moodless to upload the pics from my flat dinner...

maybe later..

janice.. tee hee...

when u think of all your ex-es.

you'll find a pattern. a scary familiar pattern.

i need to close my eyes and heart to heal the wounds that are once again opening.

i guess i'm not good enough.

i guess my hormone changes play a part.

i'm quite sick of myself at the moment. was so happy with life a moment ago.

arrgh..

janice. will u regret ur whole life is the last action u did to someone was to make them upset? i will. my heart is tired. the more i know, the more hurt i get. time is never enough for u.

i love having vet friends.. so we have free excess to the barns and etc.. hehe... anyway.. we realised while chai and jia lin were washing dishes.. that they have similar legs.. just that one is tan and other is white.. cool ar!! haha..

so at 11pm.. we headed to the vet school which was full of roaches.. and chai was screeching... and we went to the vet lecture theatre to watch i robots.. damn nice show... i was so sad when i thought sunny died...

and after that at 1am it was jia lin's rotation turn... so we followed her to the 'sterile room' or whatever its called to see miniature horses!!! a mummy and her fowl!! damn cute!!see mummy?? and fowl-y? (had to make it rhyme) the fowl had a muzzle on as it ate too much and chocked.. so they had to restrict its eating..jia lin went in with the 'spacesuit' to remove the muzzle... and he kept running away...and baby gets to drink milk....

next we went to the equine barn.. (clever chai wore her new shoes and had to avoid all the shit on the ground) haha.. another horse mummy with her fowl... its really large after we saw the miniature horses...a really shy fowl...
and another miniature horse- ANGEL... so sweet... really really friendly and we all loved her...
see how cool is her Afro??
and after that jia lin fed the horses a bit.. both chai and wilford did.. janice the scady cat didn't.. its too big and scary for me!!!
chai and her angel.. haha..

i'm so looking forward to coming home..

and hug my hubby...

janice... my flat dinner did not turn out as a real flat gathering.. 2 people popped out from no where.. oh well... there goes my intention of having a flat gathering... but it was still good..

i feel so upset that i need more hugs that i can ask for..

i just want to get out of here and leave..

get over and done with this place and this room

janice.. i need a rest.. please give me a break..

i'll be back earlier.. no telling when.. shh...



anyway



just more picture updates..

since it is my last week here in aussie.. i bought roses for all of my girlfriends.. its really quite ironic that i really wanted to go home so badly.. but now i feel a bit lost.. a bit scared.. a bit sad.. a bit stressed.. its just a concoction of feelings that i can't describe.. but i know that i will miss the people and the times spent here very much. roses for sharon and chai.. too bad for jules and michelle..
roses in my room for lucky and myself...
i really wish time could stop.. but yet i wish it would speed up and let me be in the arms of my parents and darling..

so my flat is having an Austrian dinner cooked by conny on sunday.. and her mother actually sent the spices and stuff over.. and it was quarantined by the customs for like 2 weeks. and she also sent Mozart chocolate... as quoted from the website: "The Mozartkugel chocolate transformed into a medal form. The Austrian candy manufacturer Mirabell from Salzburg makes it possible with the "Salzburger Mozarttaler"."

cool right?? i've yet to peel the gold foil open.. suddenly i feel like charlie from "charlie and the chocolate factory" (my favourite book of all times).. wondering whats the taste of this chocolate flown in from Austria..

on a much lighter note... i managed to take a pic of wilford.. frontal view!! but the creepy thing was when my phone displayed the pic as a smaller icon.. his face was not facing the camera.. creepy wilford and pictures..

last night i was again on my so called - COOKING SPREE!! and i cooked for jia lin, sharon, shalini, chai, wilford and i. and shalini made lemon squares.. its damn nice.. like it melts in ur mouth.. emmm... and.. while throwing this chocolate egg to jia lin.. it went into my wine glass and it broke.. therefore... eggs are harder than glass!!

and after much avail to chase shazzy to pack and wash her clothes i still failed.. she is really the queen of procrastination... so wilford and i went to do laundry with chai coming along to take moisturiser from wilford. and the first thing she asked:

chai: OMG such a big bottle? do u use it to masturbate?

wilford: whatever chai

chai: you can use it to make ur dick nice and smooth!

janice: *laughs.. haha.. then chai retreated into the wardrobe with a bottle of Bintang beer.. and i saw wilford's SPONGEBOB boxers.. which were cursed!! i swear.. cause i hit my head on the dryer door which was left ajar.. which ended up hitting wilford's head. wahah... its cursed!!!
and this is chai's starburst gummy.. its supposed to be a 2 headed snake.. but we all think otherwise..

chai: i can't believe that they give this to kids to eat!! another random thing: I BAKED QUICHE!! with carole's teachings...

janice.. i will really really miss this place..

Lea Salonga - WE COULD BE IN LOVE (Duet with Brad Kane)

"Be still my heart
Lately its mind is on it's own
It would go far and wide
Just to be near you

Even the stars
Shine a bit bright I've noticed
When you're close to me

Still it remains a mystery

Anyone who seen us
Knows what's going on between us
It doesn't take a genius
To read between the lines
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

I ask myself why
I sleep like a baby through the night
Maybe it helps to know
you'll be there tomorrow

Don't open my eyes
I'll wake from the spell I'm under
Makes me wonder how
Tell me how
I could live without you now

And what about the laughter
The happy ever after
Like voices of sweet angels
Calling out our names
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

All my life
I have dreamed of this
But I could not see your face

Don't ask why two such distant stars
Can fall right into place

Oh, it doesn't take a genius
To know what these are symptoms of
We could be
We could be, we could be in love

We could be in love"

janice.. dead tired and we are definitely not geniuses.. hehe.. thanks for calling babe.. miss u tons!!

cooked dinner for the gang again last night with willford's 3 weeks frozen drumsticks..

had tuna pasta and roasted chicken with potatos and carrots..

and jia lin had a car accident.. NO WORRIES.. SHE IS FINE!! just that the car was badly hurt.
miss jialin looking sad.. and tried to take a photo and send a mms to steve.. haha..
Jialin (in whiny voice): mms sending failed! and this is what the sun in perth does to u!! look at shazzy.. just 2 days of driving.. see the difference?? right hand drive..

after dinner.. we talked till 1am?? ghost stories AGAIN!!! bloody hell.. freaked me out.. hate u guys man.. so chai and i camped at willford's room watching movies- alfie, eurotrip and i kocked out on the last one.. This is willford (white blanket) and chai (willford's cum blanket.. haha) and we joked that everything we sat on had willford's come.. haha.. and i asked him where does he dispose of his 'manly fluids' and he said: paper bin lor!!! OMG and i nearly stepped both legs into the come bin after that.. haha.. what a laugh we had... at 530am we decided to head home... ( i have now 2 days of not so much sleep)
the view outside my room looks so different since i first came to student village...

my condolences to all the people that have suddenly passed on... Darling's friend's mummy and jia lin's friend's father.

do i really expect too much? am i asking for too much of your time? why are all men the same? or do i simply do too much for my man that it seems whatever they do pales to the effort i put in.

janice.. the tears keep flowing...

i'm lost.

in a world that i've created too much demands for myself.

janice. cheers to my new found wisdom but insecurity.

sending michelle and han off was really kinda sad.. esp xiao han.. since she won't be seeing her pal next sem..

its really sad that sometimes we make the friends that will eventually turn out to be the best friends of our lives abroad and eventually we might never see them again because we come from different parts of the globe...

and i am seriously blessed to have found a bunch of pals here..

yesterday.. michelle was seriously a mad women.. running amok in her room.. with 34kg luggage... how the hell did she get on the plane man.. haha.. and she gave all of us a bag of exam goodies.. so fattening!!! but yet very sweet...

michelle, willford, sharon and i had dim sum lunch at a restaurant at leeming.. lucius was supposed to wake up and gimmi directions.. but shazzy and i managed on our own.. actually i'm quite impressed with my map reading skills here..

after lunch.. it was time to get to the airport.. only chai sent them off cause their luggage was seriously LARGE... (large is an understatement).. and off they went...

well.. so there was the 3 of us left.. with shazzy out for dinner..

carole baked a quiche for me.. ok.. no picture.. cause i gobbled it up. while deciding to cook a pot of green bean soup.. and i called the gang of 2 over.. and we read mags.. ate soup... but without jules michelle and shazzy.. it was kinda boring.. i called my hubby while chai and willford played sudoku and crosswords out of a PORN mag.. ya.. that was how entertaining we were..

shalini joined in the crossword.. and they gave up and cheated.. used my computer..
willford: cheating is really fast man...
the crossword.. its seriously difficult.. i was to lazy to attempt.. haha..

and chai.. as usual.. itchy hands.. doodled on the mag..giving the model a tatto of : I love willford.. haha
the face really looks nice.. super cartoon like..

oh well.. i promise to have dinner parties with my pals in 3 weeks time.. WAIT FOR ME LA.. u buggers...
janice.. cheers to my panda eyes...

okie..

5 hrs of karaoke after not sleeping for 1 night = high....


but it was really a hella night of fun!!!
the room at the new Utopia was nice.. and the TV was big... better than the one last time...
michelle with chai... (hao lian la.. going home...haha.. lamer)
the babes singing to SPICE GIRLS... we are the gang of most spastic people... singing the lamest songs.. just to have fun and annoy each other.. michelle and i sand F4's Lui Xing Yu.. WTF right.. haha.. but it was greeeattt
and my pro shot of willford's face.. while he was singing all the hokkien songs... WILL SHOULD GO JOIN THOSE HOKKIEN SINGIG COMPETITION.. OR GETAI... haha.. he is damn good la.. we were just short of a bottle of XO.. haha.. and it was really got so homesick when some of the song backgrounds were shots of SINGAPORE.. -mrt.... sentosa.. cable car... parks... OMG!!!

jules is greatly missed (don't let ur ego grow... i'm sure u miss us like shit too!!)

michelle is leaving today..

i think i'm going to have withdrawl symtoms without them...

sobs..


and i have further confirmed something yesterday:

me(at lucius' hse): don't u all think i have an annoying voice??
lucius, will and michelle: YA! NOW THEN U KNOW AR!!
betsy: no la.. cute ma...

sobs.. i asked for it.. oh well... haha..

janice with the annoying voice.

i have a bloody paper tmr and on sat!!! next week and the follwing week..

and life is super unfair... jules is going home today!! slut...

michelle day after!!!

okie.. studies... more updates after sat

janice.. have a safe flight home bitches... heh heh..

the type of people i hate most: china people.. why? because they are the most insensitive people. and when u tell them straight in the face. they don't like it.. hai.. what a troublesome bunch of people insensitive to people's feelings.

KNN.. i'm having a paper tmr.. still on the tv so loud.. (and china people tend to talk damn loud)

till today.. i have NEVER met a china-rian from china that is "classed"..

i also wanna go home la... damn it...

last night.. a simple dinner.. became a games night till 130am.. haha.. (yes.. i know i must study) after dinner everyone was watching star wars and i was online talking to my poly gang... after a while.. everyone became sick of me and left me with paul.. haha... so i went offline.. thanks kor!! u seemed so busy!!
the games michelle went to the office to rent... haha... and we started off with twister!!

the best posture of the night!! haha...
jules and her long legs.. (i am seriously too short for this stupid game k!!)
and jules and wilford.. haha.. does jules look a blue frog... i sort of think so...
and retarded jules trying to be the arrow for the twister.. ( i have a frontal pic.. and she looks like a fugly walrus.. but i promised not to put it up. haha.. chill ya!!) and after the whole saga.. willford was crowned the king after battling with chai...
and.. while playing taboo... i found out that HOCK is actually an english word.. which also means spit.. hahha... now i know... and we moved on to pictionary.. the verdict.. michelle cant draw for nuts.. haha... and our doodles... finally.. we are exhausted...

today's weather was drawing all the energy out of me.. it was 36.4 degrees maximum today!!! arrgh.. i was supposed to go to school.. even lucius offered to DRIVE me to school... but it was so hot.. and i was a lazy piece of tofu la.. haha.. tmr it will be WORSE!!

but eventually.. i did get out of the house... to meet willford to return the games.. IT WAS BLOODY HOT.. argh.. and i tied my hair into a bun.. under my cap..janice.. do i look like a boy?? thanks for the sweet email darling..

i bloody hell spent $197 yesterday at habourtown!! but i spent like $80 bucks for presents.. shit.. time to save again...


oh well.. just update some pics ya??? gotta study...
this is jules.. once again... we were munching pies and talking about high class stuff like perfume.. LV.. Dior... Fendi... etc and etc.. so act atas lor.. haha...
and jules has toes like fingers: claimed by chai.. haha...
okie.. these are all of my buys.. and more that i didn't take a pic off... the pressies i bought... except this pants i bought for darling...

i think men who can pull this 3/4 pants off is damn hot.. (so i think my hubby is hot! don't laugh.. its NOT funny..)and the cap i bought for myself is matching with his pants!! so cheesy.. haha..

and i bough a cermic hair straightener for myself to curl my hair.. (yes... i'm "hiao" so what u wanna do about that?? don judge me... haha)

this is my normal hair... (that jenn proclaims is messy..)and my curled hair.. can't really see the curls due to the lousy camera.. need to buy a good one when i get home...

we shopped till 830pm!!! and chai spent like $500... crazy gal...
we had nandos for dinner... YUMMY.. (abit salty for me though)

janice... 3 weeks!!!