i'm super annoyed yet again (whats new in my bloody life right?)

well.. i'm seriously having second thoughts about going shopping with lucky on sunday.. why?? cause she will work til like 1am on sat night. and she can sleep till 11.. by the time we reach there its like 12?? and then 3pm steven (her so called bf.. i don give a damn anymore).. is picking her up..

I detest him to the core. sorry man. its just too bad that i hate your rude attitude. even if u are shy. someone pours a drink for u or washes some dishes for u. just open ur god damn sealed mouth and say THANK YOU. XIE XIE.. whatever language u can speak man!!

and now she tells me that her friend is coming along. and chianians are like damn anal about shopping. hai.. ( i'm not saying that i have 'atas' taste but some of their clothes are like fashion of 10 yrs ago.. or some auntie print or super act cute)

and whats the MOST pissing thing? lucky borrows my clothes. and when i ask her to try a piece when we shop. she says its not her. annoyed. and i told her. u must try to find clothes that show off your good stuff and hide the flaws. she says. "my figure so good". don need la. hell to it. next she claims that make up makes no difference. but when she goes on dates she now must apply makeup. super annoyed. and she says she is listening to me.

as a human. u must make ur own mind and decide what u want for yourself in life. if u believe that u are perfect. that why the point listen to my 'crap' and change when u don believe. unless u believe.

don feel like going anymore.. i would rather go alone..

janice... life is not the way i want it to be. darling save me. ARRGH... KNN!!!

just some random pics of the week to ease my annoyed mood.. don wanna mention it here anymore.. talked to darling about it.. feeling so much better.. and i watched 'school of rock' on tv.. made me happy.. prison break 3 and heros 2 have starting airing here.. hehe... but i've gotta study!!! this pic was when conny made dinner for her bf andrew.. this is rock melon with a type of beef that tastes like ham...
and pasta.. that has potatos inside..
and this was the rest. where i ate dim sum with sharon and thier church people.. and i'm having dim sum this sat AGAIN... wth is with me and dim sum...
darling has SOC tmr.. good luck darling!!! and kor is booking out in 2 days!!! haha!!!

janice... all smiles.. still sulking a little...

no pics.. too busy.. too lazy..

didn't do well for my tests..

accounting- 59/100 (average of the class was 45/100)

hai.. feel sorry for myself..

anyway.. went to uncle's place for dinner today

THANKS FOR THE YUMMY FOOD!!

prison break 3 is out in aussie!! i miss the time i spent watching some episodes of prison break 2 with darling.. the rest is still at home.. haha.. i MUST go watch them and heros when i get home!! sorry darling.. made u copy for me..

janice.. off to record recipes...

DARLING JUST CALLED (OK I CALLED. BUT WE TALKED!!!)

NOT EXPECTING TO TALK TO HIM FOR SOMETIME.

FELT LIKE I HEARD HIS VOICE AFTER 10 YEARS!!

I MISS YOU!!

you just have that way of making my heart smile without a reason..

janice... 68 for my commercial law test!! sian work harder

today darling reports to sispec

sian.

there goes the days where i can wake him up at 10am. listen to his sleepy voice. talk for hours. get a reply from his sms throughout the day. call him anytime i want.

just when i've gotten used to things. it changes even before i can grasp the past.

and today my mood changes. due to biological reasons. and no darling to listen to me sulk. i try so hard to keep everything inside. hide my tears. soften my weeps.

only you can drive away my tears. take away my pain.

heavy showers with strong winds today. outside the window. inside my heart.

janice. can i brave through to get to class?

so moody today

went hse hunting with michelle and sharon.

she decided to go with her friends instead. (i'm not that popular after all)

decided maybe i'm not moving out. parents.

everyone breaks promises. so why make them?

have a safe training darling!

janice. i only have my tim tam biscuits.

so much has been going on...

just some small small and interesting updates before i conk off to my warm bed with my darling waiting to give me a warm cuddle..

today.. I COOKED CHICKEN RICE.. "Kuey Peng".. damn proud of myself k!! for 7 people again!!

and i managed to debone the chicken.. ALL BY MYSELF K!! *applause pls!!and sharon made trifle.. (i forgot to ask her how to spell).. its custard with jelly and choc and mandrain oranges and yummy stuff...

sharon drove michelle and I to woolworths (supermarket) and it was the best i've seen in western aust since i've came here!! best selection of fresh food!! and asian stuff!!

And i saw this (look up) can't guess whats this?? its a hybrid of a cauliflower and brocolli.. i think its called a brocoflower.. haha...

and today 'uncle' brough us to sing karaoke.. so typical uncle lor.. haha.. (shh).. and michelle went with me and his friends.. will went home to be hardworking!! and while we were driving there.. he was stopped by the police.. checked his licence and did a breathalyser test.. so exciting!! but everything was fine.. only michelle and I drank a bit at home...

Michelle and i.. better pics with her... must go steal.. haha

Anyway.. i took this pic in the village.. so pretty right?? ( i sound bimbo) but some flowers stink... really!!! eww... i might be moving out.. the student village is hiking the rent about (20 dollars more a week) and building new blocks and pools... so its so expensive...okie.. need sleep.. so proud of my darling.. reporting to sispec on monday with zhi gang, kaiwen, jeremy and... many more.. and marcus kor and black paul for making it to osc.. haha.. the 10 days just flew pass.. hai.. another 2 months!!

janice... gastric haunts me again.. GO AWAY!!

I hate waiting!! for nothing.. haha.. my annoying brain is weird.. i need my dose of family love, hubby love, besties love and titans love.

congrats to my meli for graduating in SIA.. now she is an official cabin crew!!
but till then i'm still smiling. tests went.. erm.. marketing is a sure distinction... for bioprocessing.. if i can (or the class) can pass.. its a miracle..

i miss my darling.

janice.. i'm cooking chicken rice tmr!!! yummy!! (i'm trying to learn to cook as many things as possible.. so when i go home.. i can feed my family and my darling!! arn't they lucky!!)

its mid sept now..

ITS TIME TO START PLANNING FOR OUTDOOR..

I'm listening to The Olympic Spirit by John Williams.. makes me into a band mood while i'm supposed to be studying...

not too sure if the bands will still be taking part. i hope so. a break in 1 year will be very detrimental to the band standards. the bulk of the original alumni (8 people) is MIA now.. but i'm sure the rest will do a better job.. smiles..

I'm so full of hope.. waiting to see the titans in action when i get home in dec.. waiting for the sun and music to embrace me!!

i wonder what will the DM's uniform will be like?? lets embrace some changes and make it better!! "chio-er"

Ps: sorry zach.. cut out ur face.. haha...

so excited.. i'm sure the band won't disappoint me.. they have never disappointed themselves.

anyway the perth royal show is at the end of the month.. there will be bands.. farm animals on show.. i'll keep my eyes peeled for new ideas..

janice. lets make it even better together. with a different experience i have now. i can embrace everything again. its a new feeling all together.

What will you do when u walk into a shared room and see ur room mate deep in sleep?

a) ignore ur sleeping room mate. decide that you are the most important. switch on the lights and do whatever u intended to do.

b) be nice. do ur stuff in silence. or try ur best to shut up.

c) decide to let ur roommate sleep. go out and do whatever u wanna do later.

most people would choose b). apparently not lucky. she is a). she and my sleep never seem to tally. hai.

i slept at 5am and woke up at 9am this morning. studied. went for class. and came back. studied till 4pm. decided to take a nap. half hour into my well deserved snooze. she comes home. TURNS ON THE FUCKING LIGHT. (glaring into my face). and when i sit up awoken. she ignores me and reads a birthday card then SUDDENLY sees me but says NO SORRY, and blames me instead. WHO SLEEPS IN THE DAY? FUCK. me of course.

my sleep are like damn important to my tired brain.

NOW I'M SERIOUSLY PISSED. and she asks me. are u ok? why are u so unhappy? u know i can't understand how some people can be so insensitive to other's feelings. to her. i'm like SUPPOSED to share her mood. i know she is secretly jealous of darling and i. Fuck. i'm bitching. hai. and all she does is complain to me about her guy. freak lor. if u don like him. DON LET HIM TOUCH YOU. SIMPLE. she is 22 years old. still insist that she must wear cute clothes. arrgh. looking young is NOT cute!!

so pissed. can't sleep.. can't study!!

ARRGH...

janice. 2 tests tmr!!!!!!!!!!! SLEEEP??

i hate myself.. sometimes.

i can get so annoying. sorry darling. i worry for a reason i seriously don't understand. if you don't sms me by 3am. i start to worry.

i'm scared that one day that i can no longer hear your voice. at that point there will be no meaning of waiting. waiting for the wall between us to collapse. no more chance to lie in your warm arms. please be safe. always.

i will always be waiting.

janice. the lonely night makes one emotional. <3

Today's post is filled with pics!!

Yesterday was lucky's birthday.. it changes every year cause it follows the lunar calender... and we all pretended that we forgot.. and she was quite sad.. i shall confess that i'm the evil queen.. wahahha... and when she went out for dinner.. we baked a cake ( 2 actually)...
cake 1: slightly burnt.. but still edible...
cake 2: final successful product in the fridge.. we were so proud of ourselves

and when she came home.. she called me to open the door (we stole her keys.. haha.. so we know when is will be back.. clever right!! my idea.. kua kua kua ) and we told her there was a blackout.. haha.. cause all the lights were off... and blindfolded her.. haha.. and we led her to open the hallway door.. and shalini was standing there with the CAKE!!! haha.. and she was screaming!! haha..

our happy birthday gal with her cakes...
cutting her cake... happiness.. (not forgetting to act cute!!)
and our flat family photo.. finally.. everyone into 1 photo.. haha...

and...

DARLING HAS FINALLY SENT ME HIS PHOTOS!! hehehee.. so happy...

darling and arnold.. my darling is so skinny now.. sobs.. i promise i will cook for u when i come home k?? i think he looks so nice and charming in uniform.. hehe..
darling and black paul!!! haha...
Daring with... erm.. i dunno.. haha.. (i have this prob of differentiating them. they are all tan, botak, wearing identical uniforms and have the same type of specs) haha...
Darling and wen yan!!! so happy that she loved the pressie i bought for her.. and she said i also bought her over.. haha.. to the dismay of my darling.. aww...
And my darling with MORE look alikes.. hahaAnd this was when wen yan was driving... so cute.. haha...and BBQ with his army pals... This is Tim.. darling and darling's buddy jeffery... my poor darling.. don't be sad/ emo.. i'll be home soon!!!
Till then.. SMILE.. so happy...

janice... school is HECTIC...

Spring is the season to be out in the sun and let the wind blow u away.. yet this sunday i was in the library with david slogging assignment.. after 4 hours.. i took a small small break.. took a stroll and walked the vet science grey hounds with sharon and wilford. I SWEAR.. besides samantha.. i cannot walk any others.. cause they are either too jumpy (which means they are taller than me when they jump.. eek) or too strong.. haha...

spring is the season for wild flowers in all shades and tones sprouting out every where.. beautiful..
i think i was quite annoying today cause sharon was trying to get the dogs out and stanley (this black one in the pic below) was trying to budge his way onto me... and i screamed... haha...
i don like black dogs.. too fierce for me... bleh
and i brought samatha to check out the goats.. mehhhhh
the horses in the farm were too far.. but murdoch is really a beautiful place... rustic..
my samantha.. hee... so sweet... after the walk.. she sort of thanked me by rubbing her face on me.. hehe... so cute...

then sharon brought us to the barn..

horses... so big and towering... but i finally touched a horse today!!haha.. so exciting... hee...

janice.. a new experience everyday.. for now.. back to assignment.

darling has yet another BBQ tonight.. the ten days will just fly pass again..

everytime i click "inbox" and i see new emails

i hope its my family's, my besties or darling's email.

most of the time i get disappointed.

i know tt everyone has been making an effort to remember me. email and update me. sometimes i feel quite sorry for myself. the pros and cons of going overseas.

oh well..

more assignment tightening on my neck.

i wanna have fun.. away the stress.. next time maybe.

janice. still waiting. it hurts.

even though there has been much tension.. i still care for the people around me.. i can get damn pissed.. but.. hai.. i still get soft hearted in the end.. I HATE MYSELF!! pics from gelare the other day... i shared a large with cheryl.. at 9pm.. while the weather was wet and cold around 12 degrees.. cool... ice cream in freezing weather!!!
and i cooked for 7 people( sean, will, michelle, lucky, sharon, conny and myself) on which day i have currently no urge to recall.. but we had thai food.. pineapple rice.. sweet and sour fish and tong fen salad with meat balls.
sharon and michelle bough cheesecake from the cheesecake shop.. (cheesy name.. but it works!!) wahhh... so fattening but smooth on the throat.. yum... more situps then.. i need to join conny for jogging..

i miss darling... called so many times today.. and he is having fun at wen yan's chalet being king.. haha.. playing PSP (burnout)... having food cooked for him... driving around...(good life neh.. )

i've gotta study more again... while i still can grab some sleep out of my sleep sucking roomie... haha..

janice... eileen(my cousin) has given birth to a cute healthy baby boy!! hee.. can't wait to carry my new nephew when i get home.. whahaha

WARNING.. this is a wordy post!!
today.. theoratically.. yesterday cause its now 3am.. I'm STILL studying..

why? many factors.
1. i was snoozing in the late afternoon as it was raining.
2. spent some of the day talking to darling.. about an hour or more
3. lucky came home with a bruised thumb as she slammed the car door on it.
(had to help her medicate)
4. spent most of the night at sharon's flat.. brought some soup for her

anyway. the air of romance has subtly settled in flat 58. my flat. lucky was pissed with this guy who was her assumed bf. (whom i personally despise - will elaborate later) and conny who has once again change bfs as the previous was weird (quote: australian man are weird. period). cheryl on the other hand has had some trouble keeping her relationship under covers from pestering friends.

now i shall begin my lecture on lucky's so called bf ( i have no idea if they are together or separated.. cause she sometimes annoys me). Why? cause i HATE when rude people enter my flat and SIMPLY ignore the other people in the flat. EXCUSE ME. GOD GAVE YOU A MOUTH AND EYES FOR A REASON. and u enter my room without asking. BASIC COURTESY?? bloody annoying guy. these type of people seriously annoy me. and i hate it when she starts covering up for him (love?? bull shit) saying that he is shy.. introverts should just stay home and annoy the tv set. then again. being introvert does not equal being rude. and he makes her cook for him when she is so tired (damn stupid girl also, told her so many times don conform i u don want to)

AND THE PART I HATE MOST!! is when i've told her again and again to not do anything if she is not happy. and she still does it. comes home and have a damn sad and tired face (it saddens me too!) and COMPLIAN. sian lor. (do i look like a complain box?? serioulsy) EVERYTIME its like that. TILL A POINT i just ignore it. cause it spoils my mood. And he is a damn bastard. he thinks she is at his beck and call.. Male chauvinist pig.. and she says she 'has' to go out with him. eventually she has no time to study. and complain to me AGAIN. yesterday i slept at 2am because of another round of airing complains. I HAD A BLOODY PRESENTATION at 9 am. and when i said i needed sleep. she asked me why so early. she wanted to talk more. so i talked to her all the way till 2am. HELP!!

anyway.. yesterday she made her mind up to break up. and today. its back to sq 1. my agony saga continues. now she is deep in slumber (after we took care of that thumb) while i slog my bioprocessing assignment. YES DAVID is going to say: blog somemore.. chat with bf somemore. don do homework. yes. thats me. procrastinating kills.

but on a happier and lighter note. darling has been so sweet. smiles. thank GOD i have u. darling is playing cage soccer now. Happy birthday wen yan! more pics of darling when he goes home after chalet.

janice. This is my only exhaust of complains. Input and ouput.

can you imagine yourself walking into a museum and you see a beautiful marble goddess/ god under the spotlight. In the limelight. Your eyes squint to have a clear vision. You want to go nearer. S(he) looks perfect.

as u move towards the marble statue. she has a great figure. the most alluring eyes. the most charming smile. you are mesmorised.

as u are in close proximity. U see fine cracks in the statue.

sometimes it takes a close distance to see a person's flaws. No one is ever perfect.

you can choose to stay at a distance to admire her beauty or accept a person's flaws and enjoy a close proximity.

i love u for everything. every word. every smile. every laughter.

janice. I've never been happier. because of you. only you.

I LOVE JENN!!! haha... (don't be jealous darling.. she sent the pics to me faster!!)

cause she took pics for me!!! and she managed to find darling!! haha.. aww

thanks jenn!!

janice... MY DARLING IS SO SKINNY NOW!!! sian....

TODAY IS THE END OF BMT!!!

HAPPY POP DARLING!!!

i promise i will wait. for that day. i miss u.

janice. zzz

I just uploaded my pics on to the computer.. haha.. life has been having tons of ups and downs.. i have been thinking more.. this week marks many POPs and enlistments.. may all guy pals have a nice time in the army... hai

this was a pic with lucky.. she was going on a date with.. eh hem.. haha.. and i grabbed a pic with her... *sweets
and a funny shot... haha... cool.. how shall i put it.. the bimbo and the bitch.. haha..

anyway.. now i finally understand how ben can drink here everyday.. (me too.. haha.. or almost.. i have at least a bottle of white in the fridge... )cause wine here is cheap and nice... a glass has been my daily companion..
mind my messy table full of books and wires.. i've been studying.. and today is a good day!! i just got back my bioprocessing assignment.. i got a distinction!! must work harder!! high distictions!!!
my little puppy.. haha...
this is ME... when i study.. haha.. so ugly... haha...

and this is me when i just finshed studying.. haha..

smiles.. MY PARCEL HAS REACHED THE LAND CALLED SINGAPORE!!

hehe.. thanks kor.. u have an orange pressie soon.. (i'll wear orange when i come back.. haha... ur present!!)

janice.. its a good day.. minus the rain... i'm off to gelare at 8pm to have ice cream!! study study!!

as i watch the seconds pass...

i know i'll be in your arms soon...

its been 2 months since i've seen your face. felt your touch. held ur hand. heard your heartbeat. seen ur smile.

no one will ever know how it feels to see someone everyday at work. alternate days while we were dating. and then not see each other for 5 months just the next day.

there is just an invisible door. a thin yet strong door. i can hear u laugh behind that door. hear ur voice that puts me to sleep everynight. but i can't break apart no matter how i hammer. can't open no matter how many passwords i try. only time will open the door. till i can see u again. i will patiently wait. watch time pass before me. hoping the day will come soon. i have dreams and hopes. i will wait. to see u again. to see u smile with open arms. i will wait.

but my tears might not be able to wait that long. i promise i won't cry. for now. be safe.

Hope u get ur pressie soon! Today is a "2" day.. 2 more days to darling's POP, 2 months and 22 days till i come home...

janice... alot of my girlfriends complain about their bfs in NS.. haha.. just compare with me.. you'll feel TONS better.. it makes u happier.. i like people to be happy.. u make me smile

i won't have much to blog nowadays...

busy with studies... too busy..

assignment due tmr
commercial law mid semester test tmr
marketing presentation on friday
bioprocess assignment due on next monday
accounting mid semester next monday
bioprocess mid semester next thursday
marketing mid semester next thursday

i've never studied so hard ok...

not forgetting.. darling and marcus kor's POP on weds... and fung kor's enlistment on sat.. ahaha

janice.. stress level up.. sleeping time down... no pics for the time being..

i have typed.

deleted.

retyped.

still wondering what to type.

still thinking of ur grumpy voice.

still thinking of ur face vanish before me.

still thinking of ur kiss that was still fresh.

still thinking of the i love you you breathed in my ear

still wiping the tear off my tired face

still pondering how u are doing now

still wondering how u look now

all i have is the face in my mind

you will always be perfect..

janice to hock. <3

sharon drove lucky and I to buy more groceries today.. at a oriental supermarket too...

and i saw YELLOW CHILLI... COOL YA?? and if u see the price.. YES.. its $4.97 per kg kay!!

away from interesting stuff... we had steamboat at e flat today.. too bad conny is not here...
we had tons of food... cabbage.. fish balls.. pork balls.. mushrooms... crab stick.. cabbage.. tofu... pork slices.. prawns... tong fen.. and fish dumplings
Yup thats 3 of them.. lucky.. shalini (my other flat mate.. busy vet to be) and cheryl... after that will came over to help eat... cause i also cooked sesame oil chicken...
and for dessert... green bean soup with sago.. YUMMY!!! cooked by me... heh heh...

today i only talked to darling for like 15 mins.. cause its thurdays.. he is the bedsheet IC.. haha.. and they have been checking after lights out.. so lets not risk it.. he had IPPT and SOC yesterday.. poor thing.. but he most prob got a gold for IPPT.. Cheers to my darling!!

Okie.. i need to slp and study... SHIT... NO TIME...!!!!