well... i want to live a happy life... a simple request... yet hard to achieve
i was just named useless yet again in my life... the other time was by my physics teacher who i utterly hate to the core... but still due to my sister's patience.. i managed to ace it in prelims... but now.. haiz.. i don't know how should i put it... Kenrick said pointing his index finger at me: YOUR ALUMNI IS USELESS! hmm... sometimes i wonder.. how is useless really defined.. usually people use it in the context that they are in... not considering the past... in this case.. i dont really feel that my alumni members are useless... to kenrick they are useless on the field as they dont pressurize the members enough.. but how much is enough?? scolding?? shouting?? staring?? what is enough?? life is such a simple word.. but yet so hard to define... well.. back to the main thing... sometimes i wonder... if the alumni ceased to exist.. what would happen?? we have learned to be over complacent in life... only when you lose then the meaning of cherish would be pierced deeply in the heart... i guess that when we lower the expectations we learn to be happier with things... i don't want too much anymore.. its tiring to have such high expectations... even when i succeed.. i will never be happy... i have learnt how to let go... maybe daniel is right.. i should take yoga.. learn the art to relaxation.. take things easy... but sometimes its hard when people come screaming down at you for no reason.. but this is life.. a part and parcel of it... it sucks... but i want to be happy.. taking things easy...
Janice... happiness
